ScaredOfMachines
I am who I am
- Nov 8, 2024
- 156
I've decided that tonight is probably it. After I'm done writing out my goodbyes, I'll take my anti-emetics and get anything else done I need to before I finally take my SN. And it's lights out from there, hopefully forever. I'm following the instructions in the PPH, but I'm leaving out the oxazepam. I kept putting off ordering it and now that the day's finally here, it's a bit late. Guess things'll be a bit painful.
I'm feeling very cautiously optimistic about this attempt, and much better about it than my last one. I couldn't even go through with it because I was feeling too anxious and nervous. But now I feel like I am ready. Not a shred of doubt at all, like this is the final time. And seeing what lies ahead, I'm honestly glad it is.
I'd like to thank this site for supporting me and being someplace where I could talk about my emotions without being told platitudes and lies. May things work out for all of us. I'll check back on this post after I've taken meto.
I'm feeling very cautiously optimistic about this attempt, and much better about it than my last one. I couldn't even go through with it because I was feeling too anxious and nervous. But now I feel like I am ready. Not a shred of doubt at all, like this is the final time. And seeing what lies ahead, I'm honestly glad it is.
I'd like to thank this site for supporting me and being someplace where I could talk about my emotions without being told platitudes and lies. May things work out for all of us. I'll check back on this post after I've taken meto.
