I think I’ve given up

[sadboyhours:(]

I said I'd give trying to get support one last go, I got referred to the amhs crisis team for two weeks and I gave getting better my all but it still didn't work. I got discharged on Friday even though they know I'm still actively trying to get the means to kill myself. It's a shame, I hoped that maybe things would get moderately better this time but I just don't have the capacity to feel this bad for any longer; it exhausts me. I'm at the point where I don't care what I use as long as it kills me. My thoughts are more impulsive than normal (I've always been a planner in all regards) and I don't like it because impulsive plans are less likely to work. Im going to start preparing anything I need to (notes etc) and I hope to be gone within the next few weeks. It'd be lovely to speak to some of you before I go :)
Take care of yourselves

 

[The Abyss]

Hiya, what are the top 3 reasons you're done with life if you could articulate it?

 

[sadboyhours:(]

Hiya, what are the top 3 reasons you're done with life if you could articulate it?

1. I haven't felt loved or tolerated in years
2. I don't have the energy to do anything
3. I just generally get no enjoyment out of being alive

 

[bloodycherry]

1. I haven't felt loved or tolerated in years
2. I don't have the energy to do anything
3. I just generally get no enjoyment out of being alive

Honestly I feel the same way

 

[sadboyhours:(]

Honestly I feel the same way

Message me if you ever want to talk about it, take care of yourself as well as you can :)

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I am sorry you're going through such troubling times :(

 

[bloodycherry]

Message me if you ever want to talk about it, take care of yourself as well as you can :)

Well I'm a new member so I don't think I can pm anyone yet

 

[αmber]

I wrote my note two weeks ago. I had everything ready to go but enough courage. I went to the location and I was there at the time I had settled for my departure from existence, but I couldn't. Next time I will try harder. I have already given up as well. I wish you peace, though

 

[sadboyhours:(]

Well I'm a new member so I don't think I can pm anyone yet

Ah yeah I forgot about that rule. Does anyone know the limit for messages before you can pm?

I wrote my note two weeks ago. I had everything ready to go but enough courage. I went to the location and I was there at the time I had settled for my departure from existence, but I couldn't. Next time I will try harder. I have already given up as well. I wish you peace, though

I hope that whatever you decide in the future that you find peace with it. You don't have to rush anything, our suicide is the only thing we have control over so take your time. Always here to talk if you want

 

[bloodycherry]

Ah yeah I forgot about that rule. Does anyone know the limit for messages before you can pm?

I hope that whatever you decide in the future that you find peace with it. You don't have to rush anything, our suicide is the only thing we have control over so take your time. Always here to talk if you want

Well someone said you need to create 10 posts but I'm not sure

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Well someone said you need to create 10 posts but I'm not sure

You need you post i think 20 times. You dont have to make threads, at least. Find threads where you can easily relate to the subject and post there. You should be able to pm in no time if you do that.

 

[NobodyKnowsMe]

Well someone said you need to create 10 posts but I'm not sure

I think it is also a matter of how old your account is. The other day someone had managed 10 posts but still couldn't get PMs -- however their account was only 2 days old.

 

[bloodycherry]

You need you post i think 20 times. You dont have to make threads, at least. Find threads where you can easily relate to the subject and post there. You should be able to pm in no time if you do that.

Thanks, I'll continue posting

I think it is also a matter of how old your account is. The other day someone had managed 10 posts but still couldn't get PMs -- however their account was only 2 days old.

I think I created a few weeks ago

 

[NobodyKnowsMe]

I received a PM late on the second day after I started posting -- so roughly after 10-15 posts maybe -- BUT, my account was created many months earlier. I just did a lot of lurking before finally posting.

So, you definitely don't need 20 posts. It probably is something like 10 posts and the account is at least a few days old.

ETA -- Well, you are up to 11 posts right now and your account is over a month old - but I still cannot PM you -- so apparently the count is more than 10 posts.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you. I understand that it is hard to carry on when everything seems so hopeless and you are so tired. I am also very tired of everything and I also do not see living as being enjoyable at all. To me personally, living feels so pointless. I wish you relief from your suffering in whatever happens.

 

[Marguerite492]

1. I haven't felt loved or tolerated in years
2. I don't have the energy to do anything
3. I just generally get no enjoyment out of being alive

I feel this. Talking to friends now, i still feel nothing. Movies, tv... I think I'm finally done