I think I’m done

[indigomoon]

I know that I haven't been here very long and don't really know any of you but I think I'm done with life. I don't really know what to say. I'm incredibly unhappy and I don't see that changing anytime soon. My family just ignores me and doesn't value anything that I say or do. So what is the point? The past couple of days I have felt so helpless and unwanted. So I'm going to ctb some time this coming weekend. I don't know how yet but I'll figure it out. I wish all of you the best. I hope somehow someway that you guys will find a reason to keep on going. I've always felt that life was a gift, until recently. I felt that no matter how hard it got that I could just push on through and figure things out. Now I just feel crushed and insignificant. A burden. Anyways, thank you for the kind words you have given me and for making me feel welcome. This forum is the only place that I've felt like myself at in a long time. Take care everyone. Love to you all.

 

[SpaceCadet]

Helps me alot to be a part of this community, makes me feel less alone, a place where we can relate to one another, reading posts and engaging in here has been my only escape from madness. So many great people that frequent our forum, i wish i had more energy to put in my posts so i could try to help more often.
Today i went through a situation which made me lose even more hope in humanity. Nevertheless, if you want proof that there's still a little bit of hope left and good people exist you just have to point to our forum.

 

[Of The Universe]

Indigo, I'd advise you to take your time,figure out a ctb plan and research it. Impulse ctb can often make it worse. Good luck whatever you do!

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are suffering so much, I also feel done with life, all that I want is to be gone. I know that this life can be unbearable when you feel so awful. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[Hotsackage]

I wish you peace in whatever you decide

 

[indigomoon]

Indigo, I'd advise you to take your time,figure out a ctb plan and research it. Impulse ctb can often make it worse. Good luck whatever you do!

I've been doing some thinking. I figured out what I am going to do. I have access to my husband's gun safe and can get to the handgun. And since I don't want him to be the one to find me, I'm going to go to a hotel. I don't think I'm going to be able to do it this weekend though. He's going to be home and we have some family obligations. But he goes out of town next weekend for business so that is when I think I will ctb. That will give me time to make sure our finances and bills are in order. I'll be able to say goodbye to my children and write some notes. Other than that, I think I have it all covered. This is so hard. I don't really want to die but I'm so miserable every day. Despite all the hardships in my life, I've lived a good life. I just can't go on anymore. My pain is too much. I'm not going to lie. I'm afraid to die. But what can you do? We all die at some point. We can't avoid it. I'd love to live another 30-40 years but that just seems unbearable. I'd love to see my children marry and watch grandchildren grow up. But I can't do it anymore. Anyway, I'm just ranting. Sorry. Thank you for telling me think about it and having a plan. It helps.

I'm sorry that you are suffering so much, I also feel done with life, all that I want is to be gone. I know that this life can be unbearable when you feel so awful. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

I'm sorry that you feel done as well. I wish you the best.

Helps me alot to be a part of this community, makes me feel less alone, a place where we can relate to one another, reading posts and engaging in here has been my only escape from madness. So many great people that frequent our forum, i wish i had more energy to put in my posts so i could try to help more often.
Today i went through a situation which made me lose even more hope in humanity. Nevertheless, if you want proof that there's still a little bit of hope left and good people exist you just have to point to our forum.

Isn't it funny how a forum on ending your life can make you feel wanted and even cared about to some extent? I didn't expect that when I joined. And humanity has totally died. I feel that there are no good people left. Everyone is out for themselves and really don't give two shits about anyone else. Im not like that. Ever since I was little I cared about others and wanted to help in any way that I could. Kind of like "Do unto others as you would have done to you." It always hurt my heart to see others suffer and not be happy. But our society today is just vicious. This forum is one place that I find peaceful.

I wish you peace in whatever you decide

Thank you.

 

[lostmylove]

I know that I haven't been here very long and don't really know any of you but I think I'm done with life. I don't really know what to say. I'm incredibly unhappy and I don't see that changing anytime soon. My family just ignores me and doesn't value anything that I say or do. So what is the point? The past couple of days I have felt so helpless and unwanted. So I'm going to ctb some time this coming weekend. I don't know how yet but I'll figure it out. I wish all of you the best. I hope somehow someway that you guys will find a reason to keep on going. I've always felt that life was a gift, until recently. I felt that no matter how hard it got that I could just push on through and figure things out. Now I just feel crushed and insignificant. A burden. Anyways, thank you for the kind words you have given me and for making me feel welcome. This forum is the only place that I've felt like myself at in a long time. Take care everyone. Love to you all.

I always use to think no matter how hard things got , that things would get better.

It's rough when you realise this is just stuff you tell yourself to make yourself feel better and actually some things are so traumatic and there's no hope or knight in shining armor coming.

 

[indigomoon]

I always use to think no matter how hard things got , that things would get better.

It's rough when you realise this is just stuff you tell yourself to make yourself feel better and actually some things are so traumatic and there's no hope or knight in shining armor coming.

There is no hope anymore. Not after the events of my life from this afternoon. I may not wait. I'll just go jump from somewhere. My heart is hurting so bad right now that I can't stand it anymore.

 

[lostmylove]

There is no hope anymore. Not after the events of my life from this afternoon. I may not wait. I'll just go jump from somewhere. My heart is hurting so bad right now that I can't stand it anymore.

If you think you can do it on impulse I'd say that's very brave . I understand you're in pain though last few days have been most painful of my life and I've not been able to do it on impulse at all, I've had to try tell myself to build up to I. Maybe I'm a coward idk.

 

[indigomoon]

If you think you can do it on impulse I'd say that's very brave . I understand you're in pain though last few days have been most painful of my life and I've not been able to do it on impulse at all, I've had to try tell myself to build up to I. Maybe I'm a coward idk.

You are not a coward. You are being smart and cautious.

 

[ClownMe]

I'm sorry you're suffering so much, life really sucks.

 

[indigomoon]

I'm sorry you're suffering so much, life really sucks.

Thank you.