I think I'll do it soon

[SpentStardust]

Hi guys.
I think I'm actually going to do it soon. I'm tired. Hopefully within the next two days. I've prepared messages and stuff for friends.
Method will be train. I know a spot with trains travelling at >100km/h and if I put my neck on the tracks I don't think there's any chance I survive being beheaded.
I know train isn't a nice method because of the trauma and involving other people etc etc but I want to die very soon and can't think of any other fast option (no spots to jump off of, no firearms, cutting my neck has too much SI, no place to hang myself from and no knowledge on how to do it right or materials to do it properly quickly, too much SI for drowning, ordering SN would take too long, haven't been able to successfully reproduce night-night or shallow water blackout etc etc). If you have suggestions for methods I haven't considered lmk.
If I'm sure of it by the end of today, I'll post a link to my youtube channel with the music I compose. Maybe some of you guys will enjoy it.

 

[FuneralCry]

The train does sound like a horrific and terrifying way to leave this world to me, but I understand having limited access of ways to ctb and wanting to exit as soon as possible. I hate how we live in a world that denies us the access of more peaceful options for ctb. I get that it's hard to carry on existing when you feel so tired of everything so I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[GreenTree]

This society forces us to go to horrific methods to end our suffering. No human being should have to put their head on a train line. A simple tablet should be legal to kill ourselves. I've considered all the above methods. Trains and jumping scare me. I admire the courage of those who go this way.

 

[SpentStardust]

I've always been fascinated by trains. Train, jumping, and electrocution were my three favourite already when I was 10, electrocution is quite scary now and I don't have access to a high enough place to jump off from, so train it is. I love trains, so it's not that bad.

 

[justwanasleep]

Your brave as fuck! I wish I could let go and jump infront of a train, lying down and waiting is another level. I hope everything works out as you'd like. From what I've read on here I think I'm going to go with a good old fashioned full hanging.

 

[SpentStardust]

I'm still not sure if I'll have the courage to do it. It feels so easy now, but I bet I will chicken out. And then the consequences won't be nice.

 

[Nirrend]

Hi guys.
I think I'm actually going to do it soon. I'm tired. Hopefully within the next two days. I've prepared messages and stuff for friends.
Method will be train. I know a spot with trains travelling at >100km/h and if I put my neck on the tracks I don't think there's any chance I survive being beheaded.
I know train isn't a nice method because of the trauma and involving other people etc etc but I want to die very soon and can't think of any other fast option (no spots to jump off of, no firearms, cutting my neck has too much SI, no place to hang myself from and no knowledge on how to do it right or materials to do it properly quickly, too much SI for drowning, ordering SN would take too long, haven't been able to successfully reproduce night-night or shallow water blackout etc etc). If you have suggestions for methods I haven't considered lmk.
If I'm sure of it by the end of today, I'll post a link to my youtube channel with the music I compose. Maybe some of you guys will enjoy it.

Hi sweet @SpentStardust

I'm really sorry to see that you're suffering like that

Life can easily become unbearable, we love you ❤

It's sad but wishing you the best ❤

Love ❤

 

[TydalWave]

That method takes a lot of courage. You must be in a lot of pain to consider it. I'm very sorry to hear you are going through that...

My only recommendation would be to maybe take a little time today to create a back-up plan in case the SI is too much for you in the moment. You could get SN on order at least, just in case, so you have that to fallback on. I know what it feels like to not think you can wait or make it that long; but SI is no joke. You also deserve to die peacefully, and I think it's important for you to know you can have a peaceful exit if you would like.