Venting i think ill die young

[FinalCountdown]

I don't know if I'll ever actually ctb. Although, I tend to wish things upon myself as a weird sort of manifestation ploy. If I were to go suddenly due to outside circumstances, it would be less judgement and easier closure for my friends and family. I think of scenarios frequently such as accidents, illnesses, being a crime victim. Maybe it's because of the mistakes I've made in this life that make me not want my bus ride out of here seem like another one of my many mess ups.

 

[scharlachrotsan]

not to be the person telling you to do it but if i were you i'd stage something to look accidental

 

[MrDarkness]

I'm not sure if I'll ctb either, I can't imagine the heart break I'll bring, but I'm also so tired of thinking

 

[FuneralCry]

At least to me it would always be preferable to die at a younger age, as the reality is that ageing just leads to more suffering, it's something completely undesirable. But anyway it's understandable wishing to die from a different cause other than suicide, I wish you the best.