I think I want to go during the Christmas holidays

[Lost Magic]

I have been contemplating just drinking my N and peacefully going for the long sleep before this Christmas. I don't want to spend another one alone. I really miss my mother and uncle. They were both my rocks. It's probably been one of the hardest years for me so I dread going into 2023. I can only see myself mentally and physically declining more. I also don't like the way the world is headed right now. Some people need support, especially when they are struggling with health issues on top of everything else. I just don't have that support now. I can't even cry anymore due to the meds I am taking. I am just an emotionally, numb zombie now. I don't even know who I am anymore. It's just a shit show of a life and I want out. If I am still kicking around next year, I doubt it will be for much longer. I love you all You have been massively supportive over the years. I don't know what I would have done without you guys. Long live the SS community!

 

[FuneralCry]

You are so lucky to have N. That does sound like the best way to ctb and to me there is nothing more ideal than peacefully passing away and not having to be apart of this world anymore. I wish you freedom for when the time is right for you to leave this world.

 

[jodes2]

Love you too! Long live SS!

 

[jackie_boy1337]

I understand where you're coming from completely, I hate Thanksgiving and Christmas.

I've spent them alone for so long I just try to act like they don't exist, but all the constant reminders of everyone getting together with their loved ones is just obnoxious.