Venting I think I might have to wait until the end of this month to ctb

[BlueButterfly111]

I just realized that I might have to wait until the end of this month to ctb. I've been trying to gather everything I need and I just realized that I still need money for the hotel room and Uber. Can't believe I forgot about that, I don't think I'll have enough until the end of this month.

I was hoping to be gone on or before Valentine's Day because I don't want to live through that this year. Plus I'm just ready to go! I know it's no need to rush, and things like this can take time, but I'm just done. I guess it's not that long in the grand scheme of things. I'm trying to enjoy my last days, but I'm just done.

Also I kind of liked the idea of ctb on or before Valentine's Day because it's kind of romantic to me because of my boyfriend's death. It would be my first Valentines day since his death. I know that might sound really weird but I thought it would be kinda cool to ctb around this time. Oh well. I guess life doesn't always work out the way you that you want it to, and this is just one of those times!

But maybe I'll somehow manage to do it on or before Valentine's Day anyway, but it's not looking too good. But I'll keep you updated!

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling done with suffering in this existence, I just wish to be gone as well, but anyway I hope that you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[BlueButterfly111]

I understand feeling done with suffering in this existence, I just wish to be gone as well, but anyway I hope that you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

Thank you