I think I may be picking up my ticket on Saturday

[Wolf Girl]

I'm in such an odd place. I've posted a few times recently about feeling unable to ctb even while life feels intolerably painful. I'm working on it.

I'll be picking up a bottle of Ambien on Saturday. I'm thinking of setting a few tablets aside to sedate myself for my ctb. I know how much to take to stay conscious but impaired, so I'm not too worried about it causing things to go wrong. I just need to have my hanging set up arranged and tested before I take it. I don't have a location identified yet though.

How sad that I've come to this after trying so hard.

 

[darkmango]

I'm in such an odd place. I've posted a few times recently about feeling unable to ctb even while life feels intolerably painful. I'm working on it.

I'll be picking up a bottle of Ambien on Saturday. I'm thinking of setting a few tablets aside to sedate myself for my ctb. I know how much to take to stay conscious but impaired, so I'm not too worried about it causing things to go wrong. I just need to have my hanging set up arranged and tested before I take it. I don't have a location identified yet though.

How sad that I've come to this after trying so hard.

I feel the same as you. I haven't found a place yet but I'm going to CTB full suspension hanging and I have a lot of medication for SI.

 

[eggsausagerice]

i wish you luck bud. have you thought about a forest or park? going on walks in the forest while scoping out a tree is pretty fun because you can find ducks and wildflowers. maybe you can research the parks in your area and have a day trip.

 

[bankai]

Peace and blessings upon you wolf girl.I'm not going to give you advice or a pep talk. I know you're not here for that

I recall your old profile status,heh.


But I understand. For me it's the same thing as well. I'm OK with living an extra day. I feel like I'm close to the end myself. You trying so hard means you gave it your best shot. I think we'll have less regrets in that case.

i'm still sorry it came to this.