Method I think I found what I've been looking for. [SN]

[she]

In the time I've spent on this website over the past week, I've researched several different methods for catching the bus. I still have a lot of preparation and planning to do, but I feel as though I'm taking several steps in the right direction. The most seemingly accessible and comfortable method of choice to me has been SN, or, Sodium Nitrite. I've spent some time reading about it in the PPH, as well as from Stan's Guide to SN, and it's seemingly the best option for people like me, who would like a peaceful and painless way to take fate into their own hands. I'd spoken about this topic with a friend whose profession is Chemistry, and they recommended Potassium Nitrite, rather than Sodium Nitrite. I'm unsure as to how they compare, regarding their pros and cons relative to one another, so I'll have to conduct more research on that topic on another day.

After learning about SN being one of the leading preferred methods of many of the users of this forum, considering how widely inaccessible Numbutal is, I began searching for sources to obtain SN. After days of searching and wading through suspicious websites and shady individuals pointing me toward sketchy e-mail addresses, I found an American chemical, life science, and biotechnology company that appears to be selling SN online. I won't say the name of this company, as the forum rules dictate we are unallowed to share sources, and frankly, I don't feel very comfortable sharing sources with anyone. I've also blurred any information that can be used to identify the company out of the images below. This website looks very legitimate, and I just want to be sure that this is what I'm looking for. The images below outline the drug specifications and classifications of the Sodium Nitrite the company lists for sale on its website. The company lists 100G bottles for $58.60.

Composition & Information on Ingredients of Sodium Nitrite



Product Specifications



I'm hoping this is what I've been looking for. If it is, all that's left to do is place my order and begin searching for antiemetics. After that, I'll feel much more comfortable having my method prepared for whenever I feel ready to take it and CTB. Any and all information about this topic is much appreciated, I'd like to learn as much as I can to make this process go as smoothly as possible whenever I decide to take action. If anyone has any questions for me, I'll do my best to answer them. I'm quite new here, so bear with me-- I'm still learning a lot from this community!

Much love! ​

 

[Holu]

OML u a whole ass life saver… errr ender… uhhh….

On the real tho actual hero in the war on suffering

 

[User00]

I also got SN and I'm not comfortable sharing my source. I don't know when it will arrive, but now I'm just preparing the rest of the things to get it done.

 

[she]

I also got SN and I'm not comfortable sharing my source. I don't know when it will arrive, but now I'm just preparing the rest of the things to get it done.

I wish you the best of luck on your journey, wherever it may take you.

On the real tho actual hero in the war on suffering.

It's my belief that within a society that forces itself and its atrocities upon its prisoners, we should not have to fight for our right to die with dignity.
I believe we should all have the right to our own bodily autonomy, including the right to take decisive action by ourselves regarding our mortality.

 

[Holu]

It's my belief that within a society that forces itself and its atrocities upon its prisoners, we should not have to fight for our right to die with dignity.
I believe we should all have the right to our own bodily autonomy, including the right to take decisive action by ourselves regarding our mortality.

I never understood the right to die since wtf is society or the government gonna do about it? Bring me back from the dead? I think not xD

 

[she]

I never understood the right to die since wtf is society or the government gonna do about it?

I encourage you to read about the History of the Right to Die Movement in America. Activists have been fighting for our rights to bodily autonomy for decades. This isn't necessarily about what society or the government is going to do about it if you choose to CTB, but rather how our society intrinsically makes the action more and more difficult by limiting resources and censoring conversations surrounding topics of suicide, which are and always have been widely considered as taboo.

 

[Holu]

I encourage you to read about the History of the Right to Die Movement in America. Activists have been fighting for our rights to bodily autonomy for decades. This isn't necessarily about what society or the government is going to do about it if you choose to CTB, but rather how our society intrinsically makes the action more and more difficult by limiting resources and censoring conversations surrounding topics of suicide, which are and always have been widely considered as taboo.

I'm very pro euthanasia but on everything I'm pretty sure a society which encourages or allows death on its citizens is probably acting against what a society should be doing

 

[she]

I'm pretty sure a society which encourages or allows death on its citizens is probably acting against what a society should be doing.

That's understandable, but also relatively subjective. It could also be mentioned that it would be in a society's best interests to allow its members their bodily autonomy, even if that does mean that some would choose to catch the bus. While an interesting topic, I don't feel very readily equipped to decide what would and wouldn't be best for society as a whole. In a perfect society, I would have no reason to catch the bus, and I would choose to live out the rest of my days happily instead. However, that statement in and of itself is, too, a subjective one. We all have wants, needs, and desires, but who are we as individuals to outline the exact necessities of a group of people as a whole based on what we deem fit for society? The unfortunate truth of it is that in order to gain acceptance and recognition, we'd need people to agree with us, which frankly, I don't see happening any time soon.

 

[ScornedStoic]

I also found a site supplying SN but it doesnt list the purity and the price is only 25 dollars for 100 grams which worries me that maybe it's not as potent

 

[she]

I also found a site supplying SN but it doesnt list the purity and the price is only 25 dollars for 100 grams which worries me that maybe it's not as potent

I would be careful, considering the guide from Stan on using SN is pretty clear about purity.
"Depending on availability, both food grade and laboratory grade are acceptable as long as the purity is > 95%."

 

[Holu]

That's understandable, but also relatively subjective. It could also be mentioned that it would be in a society's best interests to allow its members their bodily autonomy, even if that does mean that some would choose to catch the bus. While an interesting topic, I don't feel very readily equipped to decide what would and wouldn't be best for society as a whole. In a perfect society, I would have no reason to catch the bus, and I would choose to live out the rest of my days happily instead. However, that statement in and of itself is, too, a subjective one. We all have wants, needs, and desires, but who are we as individuals to outline the exact necessities of a group of people as a whole based on what we deem fit for society? The unfortunate truth of it is that in order to gain acceptance and recognition, we'd need people to agree with us, which frankly, I don't see happening any time soon.

Just gonna say it, but the sad truth is that there is far more money to be made on suffering individuals than there is on dead one. Whether it be them working, paying for pills or therapy, or simply impulsively consuming they still help fuel our capitalistic society. As such as long as theres more to be gained, an anti euthanasia society, no substantial change will happen

 

[she]

There is far more money to be made on suffering individuals than there is on dead one. Whether it be them working, paying for pills or therapy, or simply impulsively consuming they still help fuel our capitalistic society.

This proves the point of which that Pronatalists are inherently extremely immoral, even if their intentions are seemingly positive and loving. Our society is run on capitalism and corporate greed, and all they want are more cogs in the machine. You're not allowed to bail out if you want to either, of course not without the risk of hospitalization. It's wicked.

 

[ScornedStoic]

I would be careful, considering the guide from Stan on using SN is pretty clear about purity.
"Depending on availability, both food grade and laboratory grade are acceptable as long as the purity is > 95%."

That's why I'm quite concerned, though everyone here i talk to says the source is legitimate

 

[she]

That's why I'm quite concerned, though everyone here i talk to says the source is legitimate

Still not entirely sure if the source I posted about here is legitimate, but it honestly looks very legitimate. Might just say f*ck it and order the Sodium Nitrite from this site. I've got nothing to lose, anyway.

 

[scenario_2018]

As someone who likes chemistry, it sounds like the way I would like to do it. Thank you for this information <3

 

[she]

As someone who likes chemistry, it sounds like the way I would like to do it. Thank you for this information <3

Of course. I hope that wherever your journey takes you, it is peaceful and calm. Much love.

 

[RhapsodyinBerserk]

I also found a site supplying SN but it doesnt list the purity and the price is only 25 dollars for 100 grams which worries me that maybe it's not as potent

I think I know what site you're talking about...was actually planning to buy SN off it as my choice.

 

[Source Energy]

Maybe it's just me, but openly stating that you found SN on a suicide forum and not wanting to share your source, is selfish af. It's like bragging about the food you will cook to a bunch of hungry people.

And no, I do not need to ask for a source, my SN is safe in my medicine cabinet, waiting for me to be ready. I just don't think it's right that you don't want to help other people too. We are all here because we're in pain.

Sure, after what happened to IC, you can't just share with everybody randomly, but saying I got SN but I'm not sharing my source is not kind. Better keep to yourself that you got it. Consider how so many here who are desperately looking feel to read this.

 

[MrbearX]

I also found a site supplying SN but it doesnt list the purity and the price is only 25 dollars for 100 grams which worries me that maybe it's not as potent

I got my SN today and it's 99.6% from a source I found by accident it took a month to get here and it was only 25.00 for 100g

 

[RhapsodyinBerserk]

Is your source the same source I'm thinking of? I literally have the link open about to order but I'm not sure if they can ship to p.o. boxes.

 

[cwsyf]

Would you happen to know if they ship to Canada? Have been searching for one but the only reliable one I'm aware of is CCS and as far as I know, they only ship to US.

 

[she]

Maybe it's just me, but openly stating that you found SN on a suicide forum and not wanting to share your source, is selfish af. It's like bragging about the food you will cook to a bunch of hungry people.

I won't say the name of this company, as the forum rules dictate we are unallowed to share sources, and frankly, I don't feel very comfortable sharing sources with anyone. ​

Forgive me for saying this, but I'll be blunt. I'm not obligated to help anyone commit suicide, nor is any other member of this forum obligated to help anyone. The amount of weight that comes with helping someone by leading them toward resources is difficult to make light of, and despite my own belief system in which I believe that everyone should have the right to their own bodily autonomy to make their own decisions regarding CTB, it's still difficult for me to feel comfortable in assisting anyone with this. I already have enough on my plate and the burden of knowing that I'd be directly assisting other people in sharing my fate would, frankly, be too much for me to carry. Yesterday, someone told me they found a source for SN, and when I asked them for it, they stated that they did not feel comfortable sharing it, and that's 100% okay, and I completely understood. I did not patronize them for not sharing where they sourced it. Because by directing someone towards sources such as these, you are potentially directly assisting them with catching the bus, which not everyone is very comfortable with. Not to mention it's a violation of the forum rules to share it here. Have some respect for people's boundaries and understand that people have reasons for choosing not to share where they source SN from.

Would you happen to know if they ship to Canada? Have been searching for one but the only reliable one I'm aware of is CCS and as far as I know, they only ship to US.

I'm honestly not too sure if they ship internationally, but I can say for sure that the company is based in the United States.

 

[Unwr!tten]

I never understood the right to die since wtf is society or the government gonna do about it? Bring me back from the dead? I think not xD

Imagine, they take your brain and put it in a computer xD

 

[Holu]

Imagine, they take your brain and put it in a computer xD

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[Unwr!tten]

The sound of dial-up slowly begins to creep in.

 

[she]

The sound of dial-up slowly begins to creep in.

 

[lpfx]

Definitely a legitimate source. This is the same website that we used to order chemicals for chemistry class in college, as well as where we source chemicals for the R&D department at my work.

 

[jolongone]

I also got SN and I'm not comfortable sharing my source. I don't know when it will arrive, but now I'm just preparing the rest of the things to get it done.

I took an waiting for my SN to be delivered now l have to work out about the aes that l need, seriously thinking of just eating ginger and taking oxy codeine. Can't get hold of any prescription aes.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you would feel relieved at the thought of having a potential way to exit this world, I wish you the best and I hope that you find what you are searching for.

 

[Larysa]

Have you got a sedative planned? Worth reading the bit on SN in this post:

How I would sedate myself into death, legally. I study pharmacology.

So I made a thread that is now flooded with a million different ways to have a sedated death (https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/whats-in-your-suicide-kit-i-study-pharmacology.113882/page-4) with legal research chemicals that can be bought online, since I keep getting asked how I would do...

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