Sbetto
√\____/√\___/√\__/√\_/__________Chill guy
- Dec 6, 2024
- 186
It's been months since I've done anything other than lie in bed, watch TV series, and scroll through TikTok. The awareness that I've wasted what should have been the best years of my life has destroyed me. I can't even find the strength to get up and face the day. I spent years hoping that things would eventually get better, but now I've completely lost hope.
I believe that the main goals of a human being are to adapt, survive, reproduce, and leave a mark on this life ,and I haven't accomplished any of these things. Not even playing Xbox makes me happy anymore, even though I just bought a new game. Thinking about my wasted life demoralizes me so much that I can't enjoy even the little things.
My mom wants to get me on medication, but I already know it won't help. It won't ease my regrets. At most, I'll have some benzos ready for the SN protocol (XD). Nothing brings me joy anymore, or if it does, it lasts only for a moment. I'm firmly convinced I'll CTB in a couple of weeks. I just don't see any meaning in anything anymore.
I believe that the main goals of a human being are to adapt, survive, reproduce, and leave a mark on this life ,and I haven't accomplished any of these things. Not even playing Xbox makes me happy anymore, even though I just bought a new game. Thinking about my wasted life demoralizes me so much that I can't enjoy even the little things.
My mom wants to get me on medication, but I already know it won't help. It won't ease my regrets. At most, I'll have some benzos ready for the SN protocol (XD). Nothing brings me joy anymore, or if it does, it lasts only for a moment. I'm firmly convinced I'll CTB in a couple of weeks. I just don't see any meaning in anything anymore.
