Discussion I take antidepressants and chug alcohol daily now.

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

Man these past few weeks I've realized something. I think I'm an alcoholic now, it feels so nice to guzzle the bottle.

I take my setraline and usually before i do work or whatever i crack some cider, or a bottle of prosecco, maybe shots. After work say my days off i will drink till im utterly shitfaced and gone, seeming sobering up in like an hour to which i continue or sleep, rinse and repeat.

I take a pill, drink.
i take a pill, drink, drink
i take a pill, drink, drink, drink pass out.

The days vary in intensity and volume of happy juice but still..

Man, usually I'd give a shit but fuck, it's true that sometimes you get so bleak you just become a gray man.

Uh anyways aside from my antidepressants and alcohol, possible schizophrenia that's my routine. Anyone else?

 

[Readytogo246]

My first beer is at 9:30 or 10:00 am often days since the last month when I started to plan my ctb.

 

[GlassAlwaysEmpty]

I've been drinking more recently, mainly just to knock myself out as soon as possible.
Mixing alcholol with diphenhydramine knocks me out very quickly and puts me into a nice deep sleep.

Feel like shit when I wake up though which is the downside of alcholol.

 

[girlsboysthems]

wake up, go to work, get high, then later at night i make myself a cocktail (malibu is my mixer of choice rn) and then off to bed and again and again... until i end it

 

[AllFoxedOut]

Alcohol is the main thing that stops me from CTBing. If I'm not drinking, I'm obsessively researching how to CTB, planning my ideal method with backups.

I drink daily and am physically dependent on it, so the first step in my plan (where my family may think I'm actually getting better) is to get detoxed at a facility.

 

[JAlexa]

I can relate, except I went cold turkey on my SNRI last year because of the side effects. I started drinking to mute my self-depricating thoughts around October 2022. Previously, I only drank a bottle of wine twice a year for social occasions.

My initial purchases centered around being budget friendly: two 1.75L bottles of Jinro 24 Soju and a 750mL bottle of Jinro Chamisul Original for ~$25. Those lasted me until April because I hated the taste of soju, which made me hate myself more. In an effort to improve my drinking experience, I switched to higher ABV mid-tier Irish whiskies: 1.75L bottles of Jameson Stout Caskmates, Bushmills Black Bush, and Tullamore Dew. They taste so much better and get me drunk faster. I recommend doing the same if you're currently buying bottom shelf alcohol or vodka (unless you enjoy the taste of straight ethanol - nothing wrong with that).

I've also been experimenting with whiskey and drug combinations:

• Whiskey + 1mg Clonazepam to feel relaxed and sleepy
• Whiskey + 10mg ∆9 THC gummy to feel happy and high
• Whiskey + 10mg Adderall to drink more without feeling drunk

I don't care how dangerous it is to combine alcohol with these. From my perspective, anything that helps take the edge off life - even for a few hours - is worthwhile. If I'm barely living anyway, why not do something that makes living suck a little less? The "worst" that can happen is I become dependent or die of alcohol poisoning. Oh no...?!

 

[Aya&Dazy]

I can relate, except I went cold turkey on my SNRI last year because of the side effects. I started drinking to mute my self-depricating thoughts around October 2022. Previously, I only drank a bottle of wine twice a year for social occasions.

My initial purchases centered around being budget friendly: two 1.75L bottles of Jinro 24 Soju and a 750mL bottle of Jinro Chamisul Original for ~$25. Those lasted me until April because I hated the taste of soju, which made me hate myself more. In an effort to improve my drinking experience, I switched to higher ABV mid-tier Irish whiskies: 1.75L bottles of Jameson Stout Caskmates, Bushmills Black Bush, and Tullamore Dew. They taste so much better and get me drunk faster. I recommend doing the same if you're currently buying bottom shelf alcohol or vodka (unless you enjoy the taste of straight ethanol - nothing wrong with that).

I've also been experimenting with whiskey and drug combinations:

• Whiskey + 1mg Clonazepam to feel relaxed and sleepy
• Whiskey + 10mg ∆9 THC gummy to feel happy and high
• Whiskey + 10mg Adderall to drink more without feeling drunk

I don't care how dangerous it is to combine alcohol with these. From my perspective, anything that helps take the edge off life - even for a few hours - is worthwhile. If I'm barely living anyway, why not do something that makes living suck a little less? The "worst" that can happen is I become dependent or die of alcohol poisoning. Oh no...?!

I'm pretty new to this. Thank you for sharing!

 

[Victim.Of.Life]

Eversince my 5 year relationship came to an end a couple months ago, alcohol is what gets me through the days.
I'm a student and i have summerbreak now. I do nothing but sleep till 2PM and sit behind my desk till 5AM.
Alcohol makes it a bit more bearable. I noticed that i want to ctb more when drunk, so i'm hoping one day the alcohol will give me enough courage to just "kick the bucket".

 

[The anhedonic one]

I had my first drink in ages last week yet didn't enjoy it, which is weird because I used to love the alcohol buzz.
I drank 2 bottles of wine yet, just felt numb. No usual drunken happy feeling, just numb .
I think it must be because my anhedonia is really bad now and I just don't experience pleasure from anything anymore.

 

[Baron]

I've never drank alcohol or taken any pills, it just feels wrong and unhealthy. Even though I don't really care about my health and don't eat and exercise properly (I'm a real hypocrit huh). Never done anything to numb the pain of existence, except self harm and masturbating. I wonder how fast I would become drunk, since I never drank before.

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

I've never drank alcohol or taken any pills, it just feels wrong and unhealthy. Even though I don't really care about my health and don't eat and exercise properly (I'm a real hypocrit huh). Never done anything to numb the pain of existence, except self harm and masturbating. I wonder how fast I would become drunk, since I never drank before.

Neither did i, till i totally fell out the window and just didn't care anymore. I've stopped drinking since this post actually.

I ran out and couldn't be bothered to get anymore, thankfully laziness has helped out in this instance

 

[Dmoore3232]

I just chug kratom, all day everyday for 8 years, half of which is poisoned because it is a sketchy market. I would be better off with alcohol I think.