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- Oct 25, 2019
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Wow that's crazy. I wish you the best. My Grandfather used this to ctb in the 70s when it was prescribed for insomnia.
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Sorry for your experience , you should know it`s illegal to be in charge of your own life ! what pisses me off is when the police constantly say "we are concerned for you " when we all know they dont give a f***" they even text me at 12:30am saying they where worried for my well being and would i call them back ! I text them back saying , "I``m fine and in bed so no i wont be ringing you at this time in a morning". i was expecting a knock on the door but never heard anything back . They are just ticking boxes so they can say,"we offered all the support we could " at the inquest .
Thank you for sharing your story, I'm quite speechless to be honest. I hope things work out for you.
I'm going to do the A, but after seeing this thread I begin to feel concerned... I ordered two bottles of N from A. My height/weight is 180cm/85kg. Not sure it could work.This is great, it proves theres no pain at all and you just go to sleep. Musta been something wrong with it, no one survives 25g of N, dignitas use 15g. At least with A its in sealed VET bottles so you know its legit.
Ahahah! Police in the UK? Sympathy?i think police have sympathy in these cases because lets face it theres only one reason to get hold of N
This is a long story but in conclusion i failed my N ctb attempt here i will tell you what happened and how i am now and the symptoms of N od
i weighed around 42kg and my height 5'4
i think on the 14th of august i took 25g of N from C in 60ml of water i followed the stat dose information about that is on my post about taking N if you want more details
so i took the N although i spilt like a tea spoon amount dont think that should affect it though because of my weight anyway then i passed out there was no pain at all i didnt even realise i had passed out. my mum came home about 5 hours later so it was enough time for me she called the ambulance and they told her to pump my chest to get air in
a week later i woke up in hospital
my family has told me i didnt breathe for 5 days, i was on life support, i was dead basically for 3 days and they put me in an induced coma even though i was also in my own coma
they put me on this machine thing that took my blood out and around 4 wheels that apparently "cleaned" my blood and sent it back into my body
i had a feeding tube and oxygen aswell as a catheter, cannulas everywhere in my hands and arms
and when the doctors were ready to pronounce me dead my eye slightly dilated and they checked my brain scan and the doctor had to get 5 other doctors to come and check what he was seeing because he couldn't believe his eyes, he expected the scan to be all straight lines which wouldve meant my brain was dead but all the lines were all jagged up and down which meant i have absolutely no brain damage at all
when i woke up i lost my memory of about 1-2 weeks so i thought i was still on holiday and i didnt even remember that i took N i thought an accident happened or something so when the psychiatrists were asking me about it i denied everything i even told my mum i didnt do that because i seriously couldnt remember it i also couldnt talk for a day or 2 and after that i could barely speak and i stuttered but now my voice is back to normal
my eyes were completely bloodshot red, no white of my eyes was showing it was just blood red all over
not only that but i had the worst hallucinations because of the od, i would see things floating around and id hallucinate people, sound and touch
so i hallucinated my dentist i legit thought my dentist was in the hospital and i waved at him, then when they pulled the curtain back i saw the beach, and i hallucinated people calling my name and also when i closed my eyes and opened them i was in another room like by myself it was really scary and i couldnt get back to where i was before it took ages so maybe it was a dream or hallucinating i dont know
i kept trying to pull things out because i was so out of it i didnt realise i had a needle in my neck and i kept trying to pull it off because i thought it was a sticker
anyway i got my catheter removed and was taken to a different ward, before i was in ITU the intensive care unit
here i had my own room and a 1 to 1 nurse then the hallucinations got worse i think because i was more aware so i hallucinated 3 people, at first it was just one guy, not to mention this ward is just full of old people plus its the womens side but because of how real the hallucinations are i didnt even accept that it wasnt real, so he was making fun of me and calling me a b*tch and all of that, i couldn't see only hear him and that continued, and then there was this girl who threatened to stab me every night, it was so scary because i would tell the nurse and she would tell me it was a hallucination and ofcourse i was still hallucinating so i didnt feel safe, one night i even hallucinated that someone got shot like 1000 times and was still alive, we dont even have guns in england but i believed it.
anyway so that was the hallucinations i got them to let my grandad stay overnight so i felt safer but they still continued until i was put on an antipsychotic which made them go away immediately
my eyes are almost back to normal now too
i was put on a diet of like yogurt, ice cream, jelly and anything soft for like 5 days then i could eat anything
they gave me blood clot injection in the tummy and took bloods from me alot
i needed help getting up and walking and help getting to the bathroom and undressing
i think it took just over a week for me to be able to get up and go to toilet without help and to walk confidently by myself and i got back home after around 2 weeks, everyone said it is a miracle
so thats my story i probably missed alot out so if you have any questions feel free to ask, but also after a couple days ill be leaving here because im just getting back on track with my life i mean i failed N theres nothing else i can do and i never want to be in hospital ever again being stabbed by needles isnt fun at all
also this is in no way a post to make people stop taking N or to discourage anyone i only made this post because it is so rare to hear someones N experience because usually it works so i wanted to tell people what its like to fail, but its a total miracle and probably wouldnt happen to anyone else but me because im unlucky like that or lucky if you want to see it that way
something i forgot to add the police took my phone to investigate it i only got it back when i got home however i was allowed my ipad in hospital they also took all my piercings out and took the jewellery and my note. 12 piercings i had i only have 3 now the rest closed up
welcome back cutie, we missed you ♥ thank you for this post too :3
I hope you don't ever have to experience this again ;w;
So why did it actually not work?
missed u too
i have no idea no one really knows even the doctors
it definitely was N and the doctors knew that, it might not have been the most potent but, There's been lots of instances of N not working on people because the dosages are so differentiating per personThere's no way on earth this was pure enough to work and possibly not even N because you'd be dead if it was. I still can't get my head around you taking it and not having medical intervention for 5 hours until your Mum got home and found you. That for me says it definitely wasn't N.
This entire post should serve as a warning to anyone buying and drugs off the internet. You MUST get them tested. There are plenty of free services in the UK to send a small amount of the drugs to for laboratory testing. WEDINOS is a good service. Just google it.
If you don't mind me asking just one more question. How did the Dr's know? It would have required a gas chromatography-mass spectrometry (GCMS) on the blood (to find out the amounts in the blood and therefore the potency, right?), this is rarely carried out unless in an autopsy I think. Just pure speculation but I'm wondering if not for GCMS then how did they know? It's very expensive.it definitely was N and the doctors knew that, it might not have been the most potent but, There's been lots of instances of N not working on people because the dosages are so differentiating per person
Just out of curiosity, how hard would it be to fabricate a Vet label and put some junk product in a sealed bottle? Just a label isn't enough peace of mind for meThis is great, it proves theres no pain at all and you just go to sleep. Musta been something wrong with it, no one survives 25g of N, dignitas use 15g. At least with A its in sealed VET bottles so you know its legit.
I'll have to leave that to @rikamonie to answer but from what I remember hearing I think they found the Bottle/container of NIf you don't mind me asking just one more question. How did the Dr's know? It would have required a gas chromatography-mass spectrometry (GCMS) on the blood (to find out the amounts in the blood and therefore the potency, right?), this is rarely carried out unless in an autopsy I think. Just pure speculation but I'm wondering if not for GCMS then how did they know? It's very expensive.
Yeah I agree I honestly don't think she would have woken up if not been foundI'm sorry for what happened to you.
All in all, this is very reassuring because it shows that surviving N can be relatively harmless. You passed out within a short time and had you not been found, you would have died.
I hope you get back to 100% soon.
It has been tested by several members, but that was last year. The results were 60-70% purity.Why? That doesn't make sense.
5 hours without breathing should have done it, unless the n was impure. I had numb toes and fingers for 2 years, it was only a half hour before I was found. This doesn't make any sense unless it wasn't (at least) 40% pure (edit: even then...it's unlikely)
edit: What I can see happening is it was impure, or fake, to the point of making you black out (benzos and barbs do that on a prescribed dose), then being found. When I don't get is how you were still alive after 5 hours.
edit2: I've arrived to the conclusion that the N was either very diluted or not N at all. C's N may not be actual n, stranger things have happened on the darknet. A vendor fleeseing his customers is very common actually, tony78 ran a very long career as a LSD vendor, before ultimately exit-scamming all his customers for thousands of bitcoin. Trust no-one. Get everything tested. Do not finalize early. That's all I can think of. This is too confusing, maybe a tip-jar should be made with a highly regarded member here to send it off for testing? I would volunteer but again, trust no-one. I'm not quite sure what to do.
There's no way on earth this was pure enough to work and possibly not even N because you'd be dead if it was. I still can't get my head around you taking it and not having medical intervention for 5 hours until your Mum got home and found you. That for me says it definitely wasn't N.
This entire post should serve as a warning to anyone buying and drugs off the internet. You MUST get them tested. There are plenty of free services in the UK to send a small amount of the drugs to for laboratory testing. WEDINOS is a good service. Just google it.
I'm sorry for what happened to you.
All in all, this is very reassuring because it shows that surviving N can be relatively harmless. You passed out within a short time and had you not been found, you would have died.
I hope you get back to 100% soon.
This is very bad info to spread. Barbs (*can) cause loss of oxygen to the brain and nerve systems. It is far from harmless, it's why they were replaced by benzos.I'm sorry for what happened to you.
All in all, this is very reassuring because it shows that surviving N can be relatively harmless. You passed out within a short time and had you not been found, you would have died.
I hope you get back to 100% soon.
u a freaking miracle girl dont ever forget thatsurviving N is definitely not harmless please dont take my experience as normal my case is extremely rare usually you'd be brain dead its a miracle im completely fine
Oh my thats a harrowing experience of survival...
I do not know how to react to this, sorry. Apologies.
buttttt..
the thing that caught my eye was the String of hallucinations!!!!
I don't know man, were they ghosts??? Why these specific hallucinations???
something seems off. damn