Story I survived taking N

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@rikamonie questioned things herself. There was an SN attempt thread that she called BS on over multiple posts. And she didn't have a problem with me or anyone else questioning on this thread. I think, based on her own questioning, that she would know people probably would question her, and that they could potentially get downright nasty about it. However, people have been very respectful on this thread.

Exactly!!! no one was saying anything bad. people are going to ask questions, and have a conversation. people's opinions are going to vary, just because somebody posts something on a forum doesn't mean its the truth, i think most people realise that.

Clearly as we have just seen from the other recent thread (people lie, try to deceive NOT aimed at the OP) so its understandable for people to question things.especially when its to with CTB!!

If everyone agreed on everything, we wouldn't be able to find solutions etc to problems would we!

 

[thes]

God your experience sounds terrible! Much worse than mine. I took a large amount of J's N nearly 5 years ago and I don't think I gave the anti emetic enough time to work so I threw some of it up, I don't know how much but I must have been semi conscious. I don't remember doing it. But I was found and ended up in icu on a life support machine keeping me alive. They took me off it after one day because I could breath on my own but my eyesight was terrible, everything blurred and double vision. I also couldn't walk properly or even stand without assistance. But I was sent home a few days later because I recovered really fast and have never suffered any long term effects. I do remember when I took the N I was out like a light very quickly.
It was also the worst tasting substance I've ever drank, powder dissolved in water.

 

[Manford]

The PPH says that anti-psychotic meds can affect how N is metabolized and cause a prolonged coma phase. It doesn't say which ones though.

 

[ob600]

As an aside why are you guys drinking N instead of injecting it?

Dignitas don't you drink it?

 

[Deleted member 14386]

The PPH says that anti-psychotic meds can affect how N is metabolized and cause a prolonged coma phase. It doesn't say which ones though.

Pardon my french but what a click-bait (only under circumstances they agree on, after you pay the money for the PPh, then pre-order the 'debreather' which didn't happen) crock of shite they are for only over 65yrs and/or terminal illness......I think

Dignitas don't you drink it?

I've just come back after a hiatus, but I think so. Even the 'criminals' subject to capital punishment

 

[Manford]

Pardon my french but what a click-bait (only under circumstances they agree on, after you pay the money for the PPh, then pre-order the 'debreather' which didn't happen) crock of shite they are for only over 65yrs and/or terminal illness......I think

I've just come back after a hiatus, but I think so. Even the 'criminals' subject to capital punishment

The book is for people with terminal and / or debilitating conditions but anyone can use the methods in it.

 

[Kennish]

This is a long story but in conclusion i failed my N ctb attempt here i will tell you what happened and how i am now and the symptoms of N od

i weighed around 42kg and my height 5'4


i think on the 14th of august i took 25g of N from C in 60ml of water i followed the stat dose information about that is on my post about taking N if you want more details

so i took the N although i spilt like a tea spoon amount dont think that should affect it though because of my weight anyway then i passed out there was no pain at all i didnt even realise i had passed out. my mum came home about 5 hours later so it was enough time for me she called the ambulance and they told her to pump my chest to get air in

a week later i woke up in hospital

my family has told me i didnt breathe for 5 days, i was on life support, i was dead basically for 3 days and they put me in an induced coma even though i was also in my own coma

they put me on this machine thing that took my blood out and around 4 wheels that apparently "cleaned" my blood and sent it back into my body

i had a feeding tube and oxygen aswell as a catheter, cannulas everywhere in my hands and arms

and when the doctors were ready to pronounce me dead my eye slightly dilated and they checked my brain scan and the doctor had to get 5 other doctors to come and check what he was seeing because he couldn't believe his eyes, he expected the scan to be all straight lines which wouldve meant my brain was dead but all the lines were all jagged up and down which meant i have absolutely no brain damage at all

when i woke up i lost my memory of about 1-2 weeks so i thought i was still on holiday and i didnt even remember that i took N i thought an accident happened or something so when the psychiatrists were asking me about it i denied everything i even told my mum i didnt do that because i seriously couldnt remember it i also couldnt talk for a day or 2 and after that i could barely speak and i stuttered but now my voice is back to normal

my eyes were completely bloodshot red, no white of my eyes was showing it was just blood red all over

not only that but i had the worst hallucinations because of the od, i would see things floating around and id hallucinate people, sound and touch

so i hallucinated my dentist i legit thought my dentist was in the hospital and i waved at him, then when they pulled the curtain back i saw the beach, and i hallucinated people calling my name and also when i closed my eyes and opened them i was in another room like by myself it was really scary and i couldnt get back to where i was before it took ages so maybe it was a dream or hallucinating i dont know


i kept trying to pull things out because i was so out of it i didnt realise i had a needle in my neck and i kept trying to pull it off because i thought it was a sticker

anyway i got my catheter removed and was taken to a different ward, before i was in ITU the intensive care unit

here i had my own room and a 1 to 1 nurse then the hallucinations got worse i think because i was more aware so i hallucinated 3 people, at first it was just one guy, not to mention this ward is just full of old people plus its the womens side but because of how real the hallucinations are i didnt even accept that it wasnt real, so he was making fun of me and calling me a b*tch and all of that, i couldn't see only hear him and that continued, and then there was this girl who threatened to stab me every night, it was so scary because i would tell the nurse and she would tell me it was a hallucination and ofcourse i was still hallucinating so i didnt feel safe, one night i even hallucinated that someone got shot like 1000 times and was still alive, we dont even have guns in england but i believed it.

anyway so that was the hallucinations i got them to let my grandad stay overnight so i felt safer but they still continued until i was put on an antipsychotic which made them go away immediately

my eyes are almost back to normal now too

i was put on a diet of like yogurt, ice cream, jelly and anything soft for like 5 days then i could eat anything

they gave me blood clot injection in the tummy and took bloods from me alot

i needed help getting up and walking and help getting to the bathroom and undressing

i think it took just over a week for me to be able to get up and go to toilet without help and to walk confidently by myself and i got back home after around 2 weeks, everyone said it is a miracle

so thats my story i probably missed alot out so if you have any questions feel free to ask, but also after a couple days ill be leaving here because im just getting back on track with my life i mean i failed N theres nothing else i can do and i never want to be in hospital ever again being stabbed by needles isnt fun at all

also this is in no way a post to make people stop taking N or to discourage anyone i only made this post because it is so rare to hear someones N experience because usually it works so i wanted to tell people what its like to fail, but its a total miracle and probably wouldnt happen to anyone else but me because im unlucky like that or lucky if you want to see it that way

Spoiler: hospital photo

View attachment 43698

something i forgot to add the police took my phone to investigate it i only got it back when i got home however i was allowed my ipad in hospital they also took all my piercings out and took the jewellery and my note. 12 piercings i had i only have 3 now the rest closed up

This was powdered N? Isn't the liquid more potent and secure way to go? I'm saving up for N right now.

 

[peacefulhorizons]

This was powdered N? Isn't the liquid more potent and secure way to go? I'm saving up for N right now.

Yes this was C's powder (no longer available unfortunately). Powdered N (not currently available at the moment) and the concentrated Dolethal (discontinued) are arguably the best forms of N. However, the only form available now is aranda that isn't as highly concentrated as the previous mentions.

 

[TerminallyAlive]

This was similar to my experience surviving N a while back, except mine was from A, and I was found not breathing much quicker than 5 hours (pretty sure under an hour).

Like you, I can't remember actually consuming it, or anything about the day leading up to it. I woke up in an ICU after spending a few days on a respirator (no dialysis or whatever you had). I knew what had happened when they told me I had barbiturates in my blood. After a couple more days they moved me to a psychiatric hospital where I suffered from intense and confusing hallucinations for days. I was very mixed up about what was real. I couldn't eat without throwing up for my first couple days in the psych unit. I was unsteady on my feet, too. Between the ICU and the psych unit, it took like 12 days to feel detoxed.

The doctors told me that I was lucky not to have been severely brain damaged from lack of oxygen.


Anyway, I'm sorry you went through this too, but I'm glad you found a renewed interest in life on the other side. I just wanted to share how similar different experiences with surviving N overdose are.

 

[Catloaf]

This was similar to my experience surviving N a while back, except mine was from A, and I was found not breathing much quicker than 5 hours (pretty sure under an hour).

Like you, I can't remember actually consuming it, or anything about the day leading up to it. I woke up in an ICU after spending a few days on a respirator (no dialysis or whatever you had). I knew what had happened when they told me I had barbiturates in my blood. After a couple more days they moved me to a psychiatric hospital where I suffered from intense and confusing hallucinations for days. I was very mixed up about what was real. I couldn't eat without throwing up for my first couple days in the psych unit. I was unsteady on my feet, too. Between the ICU and the psych unit, it took like 12 days to feel detoxed.

The doctors told me that I was lucky not to have been severely brain damaged from lack of oxygen.


Anyway, I'm sorry you went through this too, but I'm glad you found a renewed interest in life on the other side. I just wanted to share how similar different experiences with surviving N overdose are.

Did you drink 1 or 2 bottles?

 

[Advisor321]

This was similar to my experience surviving N a while back, except mine was from A, and I was found not breathing much quicker than 5 hours (pretty sure under an hour).

Like you, I can't remember actually consuming it, or anything about the day leading up to it. I woke up in an ICU after spending a few days on a respirator (no dialysis or whatever you had). I knew what had happened when they told me I had barbiturates in my blood. After a couple more days they moved me to a psychiatric hospital where I suffered from intense and confusing hallucinations for days. I was very mixed up about what was real. I couldn't eat without throwing up for my first couple days in the psych unit. I was unsteady on my feet, too. Between the ICU and the psych unit, it took like 12 days to feel detoxed.

The doctors told me that I was lucky not to have been severely brain damaged from lack of oxygen.


Anyway, I'm sorry you went through this too, but I'm glad you found a renewed interest in life on the other side. I just wanted to share how similar different experiences with surviving N overdose are.

I would also like to hear how much you drank of N

 

[Ta555]

I would also like to hear how much you drank of N

These people didn't get liquid N from D. They got powdered N from china so it doesn't even matter. Also the thread is very old and indoibt anyone will answer you.

 

[The_prion]

@rikamonie can you talk to me about your experience?

This is a long story but in conclusion i failed my N ctb attempt here i will tell you what happened and how i am now and the symptoms of N od

i weighed around 42kg and my height 5'4


i think on the 14th of august i took 25g of N from C in 60ml of water i followed the stat dose information about that is on my post about taking N if you want more details

so i took the N although i spilt like a tea spoon amount dont think that should affect it though because of my weight anyway then i passed out there was no pain at all i didnt even realise i had passed out. my mum came home about 5 hours later so it was enough time for me she called the ambulance and they told her to pump my chest to get air in

a week later i woke up in hospital

my family has told me i didnt breathe for 5 days, i was on life support, i was dead basically for 3 days and they put me in an induced coma even though i was also in my own coma

they put me on this machine thing that took my blood out and around 4 wheels that apparently "cleaned" my blood and sent it back into my body

i had a feeding tube and oxygen aswell as a catheter, cannulas everywhere in my hands and arms

and when the doctors were ready to pronounce me dead my eye slightly dilated and they checked my brain scan and the doctor had to get 5 other doctors to come and check what he was seeing because he couldn't believe his eyes, he expected the scan to be all straight lines which wouldve meant my brain was dead but all the lines were all jagged up and down which meant i have absolutely no brain damage at all

when i woke up i lost my memory of about 1-2 weeks so i thought i was still on holiday and i didnt even remember that i took N i thought an accident happened or something so when the psychiatrists were asking me about it i denied everything i even told my mum i didnt do that because i seriously couldnt remember it i also couldnt talk for a day or 2 and after that i could barely speak and i stuttered but now my voice is back to normal

my eyes were completely bloodshot red, no white of my eyes was showing it was just blood red all over

not only that but i had the worst hallucinations because of the od, i would see things floating around and id hallucinate people, sound and touch

so i hallucinated my dentist i legit thought my dentist was in the hospital and i waved at him, then when they pulled the curtain back i saw the beach, and i hallucinated people calling my name and also when i closed my eyes and opened them i was in another room like by myself it was really scary and i couldnt get back to where i was before it took ages so maybe it was a dream or hallucinating i dont know


i kept trying to pull things out because i was so out of it i didnt realise i had a needle in my neck and i kept trying to pull it off because i thought it was a sticker

anyway i got my catheter removed and was taken to a different ward, before i was in ITU the intensive care unit

here i had my own room and a 1 to 1 nurse then the hallucinations got worse i think because i was more aware so i hallucinated 3 people, at first it was just one guy, not to mention this ward is just full of old people plus its the womens side but because of how real the hallucinations are i didnt even accept that it wasnt real, so he was making fun of me and calling me a b*tch and all of that, i couldn't see only hear him and that continued, and then there was this girl who threatened to stab me every night, it was so scary because i would tell the nurse and she would tell me it was a hallucination and ofcourse i was still hallucinating so i didnt feel safe, one night i even hallucinated that someone got shot like 1000 times and was still alive, we dont even have guns in england but i believed it.

anyway so that was the hallucinations i got them to let my grandad stay overnight so i felt safer but they still continued until i was put on an antipsychotic which made them go away immediately

my eyes are almost back to normal now too

i was put on a diet of like yogurt, ice cream, jelly and anything soft for like 5 days then i could eat anything

they gave me blood clot injection in the tummy and took bloods from me alot

i needed help getting up and walking and help getting to the bathroom and undressing

i think it took just over a week for me to be able to get up and go to toilet without help and to walk confidently by myself and i got back home after around 2 weeks, everyone said it is a miracle

so thats my story i probably missed alot out so if you have any questions feel free to ask, but also after a couple days ill be leaving here because im just getting back on track with my life i mean i failed N theres nothing else i can do and i never want to be in hospital ever again being stabbed by needles isnt fun at all

also this is in no way a post to make people stop taking N or to discourage anyone i only made this post because it is so rare to hear someones N experience because usually it works so i wanted to tell people what its like to fail, but its a total miracle and probably wouldnt happen to anyone else but me because im unlucky like that or lucky if you want to see it that way

Spoiler: hospital photo

View attachment 43698

something i forgot to add the police took my phone to investigate it i only got it back when i got home however i was allowed my ipad in hospital they also took all my piercings out and took the jewellery and my note. 12 piercings i had i only have 3 now the rest closed up

 

[cation]

This may sound absurd but... what happens if you go into a coma and are left for dead even though you're not? Can you wake up from that coma by yourself? Can they bury you alive and then wake you up? She has said that they gave her up for dead and that after doing some tests they realized that she was not.

 

[Inteoop]

This may sound absurd but... what happens if you go into a coma and are left for dead even though you're not? Can you wake up from that coma by yourself? Can they bury you alive and then wake you up? She has said that they gave her up for dead and that after doing some tests they realized that she was not.

You'd probably die of dehydration or starve before you even get to be buried.

 

[SAI1234]

This is a long story but in conclusion i failed my N ctb attempt here i will tell you what happened and how i am now and the symptoms of N od

i weighed around 42kg and my height 5'4


i think on the 14th of august i took 25g of N from C in 60ml of water i followed the stat dose information about that is on my post about taking N if you want more details

so i took the N although i spilt like a tea spoon amount dont think that should affect it though because of my weight anyway then i passed out there was no pain at all i didnt even realise i had passed out. my mum came home about 5 hours later so it was enough time for me she called the ambulance and they told her to pump my chest to get air in

a week later i woke up in hospital

my family has told me i didnt breathe for 5 days, i was on life support, i was dead basically for 3 days and they put me in an induced coma even though i was also in my own coma

they put me on this machine thing that took my blood out and around 4 wheels that apparently "cleaned" my blood and sent it back into my body

i had a feeding tube and oxygen aswell as a catheter, cannulas everywhere in my hands and arms

and when the doctors were ready to pronounce me dead my eye slightly dilated and they checked my brain scan and the doctor had to get 5 other doctors to come and check what he was seeing because he couldn't believe his eyes, he expected the scan to be all straight lines which wouldve meant my brain was dead but all the lines were all jagged up and down which meant i have absolutely no brain damage at all

when i woke up i lost my memory of about 1-2 weeks so i thought i was still on holiday and i didnt even remember that i took N i thought an accident happened or something so when the psychiatrists were asking me about it i denied everything i even told my mum i didnt do that because i seriously couldnt remember it i also couldnt talk for a day or 2 and after that i could barely speak and i stuttered but now my voice is back to normal

my eyes were completely bloodshot red, no white of my eyes was showing it was just blood red all over

not only that but i had the worst hallucinations because of the od, i would see things floating around and id hallucinate people, sound and touch

so i hallucinated my dentist i legit thought my dentist was in the hospital and i waved at him, then when they pulled the curtain back i saw the beach, and i hallucinated people calling my name and also when i closed my eyes and opened them i was in another room like by myself it was really scary and i couldnt get back to where i was before it took ages so maybe it was a dream or hallucinating i dont know


i kept trying to pull things out because i was so out of it i didnt realise i had a needle in my neck and i kept trying to pull it off because i thought it was a sticker

anyway i got my catheter removed and was taken to a different ward, before i was in ITU the intensive care unit

here i had my own room and a 1 to 1 nurse then the hallucinations got worse i think because i was more aware so i hallucinated 3 people, at first it was just one guy, not to mention this ward is just full of old people plus its the womens side but because of how real the hallucinations are i didnt even accept that it wasnt real, so he was making fun of me and calling me a b*tch and all of that, i couldn't see only hear him and that continued, and then there was this girl who threatened to stab me every night, it was so scary because i would tell the nurse and she would tell me it was a hallucination and ofcourse i was still hallucinating so i didnt feel safe, one night i even hallucinated that someone got shot like 1000 times and was still alive, we dont even have guns in england but i believed it.

anyway so that was the hallucinations i got them to let my grandad stay overnight so i felt safer but they still continued until i was put on an antipsychotic which made them go away immediately

my eyes are almost back to normal now too

i was put on a diet of like yogurt, ice cream, jelly and anything soft for like 5 days then i could eat anything

they gave me blood clot injection in the tummy and took bloods from me alot

i needed help getting up and walking and help getting to the bathroom and undressing

i think it took just over a week for me to be able to get up and go to toilet without help and to walk confidently by myself and i got back home after around 2 weeks, everyone said it is a miracle

so thats my story i probably missed alot out so if you have any questions feel free to ask, but also after a couple days ill be leaving here because im just getting back on track with my life i mean i failed N theres nothing else i can do and i never want to be in hospital ever again being stabbed by needles isnt fun at all

also this is in no way a post to make people stop taking N or to discourage anyone i only made this post because it is so rare to hear someones N experience because usually it works so i wanted to tell people what its like to fail, but its a total miracle and probably wouldnt happen to anyone else but me because im unlucky like that or lucky if you want to see it that way

Spoiler: hospital photo

View attachment 43698

something i forgot to add the police took my phone to investigate it i only got it back when i got home however i was allowed my ipad in hospital they also took all my piercings out and took the jewellery and my note. 12 piercings i had i only have 3 now the rest closed up

Hey Hope you're doing fine now, just correct me did you take N (Nitrogen)/ SN (Sodium Nitrite)?

 

[Ta555]

Hey Hope you're doing fine now, just correct me did you take N (Nitrogen)/ SN (Sodium Nitrite)?

They took Chinese powdered N which is not available anymore. And is suspected to not be pure N.

This may sound absurd but... what happens if you go into a coma and are left for dead even though you're not? Can you wake up from that coma by yourself? Can they bury you alive and then wake you up? She has said that they gave her up for dead and that after doing some tests they realized that she was not.

You won't be buried alive. Not with modern medicine and all the tracking they do. Also the embalming at the funeral home would kill you anyway if you weren't already dead.

 

[SAI1234]

They took Chinese powdered N which is not available anymore. And is suspected to not be pure N.

You won't be buried alive. Not with modern medicine and all the tracking they do. Also the embalming at the funeral home would kill you anyway if you weren't already dead.

Ok Thanks for your response, what is N? (is it Nitrite powder)

 

[Ta555]

Ok Thanks for your response, what is N? (is it Nitrite powder)

No, it's not. Have a look at the PPeH.