I stood on my 6th floor balcony...i couldn’t jump

[Dragonetti]

I hate myself for being so scared. I live daily with only thought of ctb. Life has no joy or value ever since I got injured now living with chronic pain. I know its not skyscraper level but a fair drop would be critical damage and a good chance of death. I also considered renting a gun at a shooting range and ending it there. Tried partial hanging but failed miserably. Still think jumping wouldnt be bad if I had the guts.

 

[dreamofme]

Better to go higher, survival instinct is a huge thing to overcome. Don't be upset everyone has to battle it (barring any psychopaths).

 

[windingdown]

Oh, don't hate yourself! It's not as if it's easy.

I made another post about this but have you read about pong seeds? As far as poisoning goes they seem to have a high fatality rate. And death comes along in <6 hours or so.

 

[Morning Angel]

I hate myself for being so scared. I live daily with only thought of ctb. Life has no joy or value ever since I got injured now living with chronic pain. I know its not skyscraper level but a fair drop would be critical damage and a good chance of death. I also considered renting a gun at a shooting range and ending it there. Tried partial hanging but failed miserably. Still think jumping wouldnt be bad if I had the guts.

You're probably going to have to change methods.

 

[MEoDP]

You're probably going to have to change methods.

Agreed. Chances of survival are too high in this case. Good thing the attempt was aborted lest the fate of vegetation.

 

[Deadinside24]

Don't be too hard on yourself. I read or heard somewhere that 7 gets you to heaven, meaning 7 stories is almost guaranteed to be fatal. I would need to be totally wasted and like trip off the building to ctb that way. It's a hard thing to mentally push yourself to do.

 

[Morning Angel]

Agreed. Chances of survival are too high in this case. Good thing the attempt was aborted lest the fate of vegetation.

Yes. Also if jumping was scary, a gun will be arguably even more frightening. Do yourself a favor and secure a peaceful, painless method if you're set on this.

 

[Wantingpeace]

Oh, don't hate yourself! It's not as if it's easy.

I made another post about this but have you read about pong seeds? As far as poisoning goes they seem to have a high fatality rate. And death comes along in <6 hours or so.

Very painful I think

 

[throwaway123]

I know from experience that jumping is a very hard thing to do. Don't be so hard on yourself.

 

[whatmattersmost]

Yes. Also if jumping was scary, a gun will be arguably even more frightening. Do yourself a favor and secure a peaceful, painless method if you're set on this.

Any examples?

 

[Morning Angel]

Any examples?

N, nitrogen, carbon monoxide, amitryptiline, fentanyl. Plenty of other methods.

 

[whatmattersmost]

I just heard of N earlier this morning.
Is it just to knock you out?

 

[Wantingpeace]

I just heard of N earlier this morning.
Is it just to knock you out?

N is what they give at dignitas for assisted dying. Kills.

 

[Jaded]

I just heard of N earlier this morning.
Is it just to knock you out?

Supposed to be for a peaceful death

 

[whatmattersmost]

N is what they give at dignitas for assisted dying. Kills.

I need that
I will ctb anyway

 

[windingdown]

Very painful I think

Maybe, the worst I've read about it is nausea and vomiting. I feel I've found everything there is to find about it.

 

[Avicii]

I hate myself for being so scared. I live daily with only thought of ctb. Life has no joy or value ever since I got injured now living with chronic pain. I know its not skyscraper level but a fair drop would be critical damage and a good chance of death. I also considered renting a gun at a shooting range and ending it there. Tried partial hanging but failed miserably. Still think jumping wouldnt be bad if I had the guts.

Don't worry if it helps I couldn't jump either balconies scare me especially wooden ones that you can see through the slats !! Balconies always makes me think of an incident in the US where a group of Irish dudes died as there were too many on the balcony and it gave way throwing them to their untimely death

https://www.google.co.uk/amp/s/www....ach-20m-partial-settlement-1.3073287?mode=amp

https://www.google.co.uk/amp/s/nypost.com/2013/08/02/womans-fatal-fall-after-balcony-gives-way/amp/

http://www.nationmultimedia.com/detail/breakingnews/30344364

 

[Phro]

I lived on the 16th floor of an apartment building and the windows opened nice and wide. With ease, I could have fit through. Yet I couldn't do it.

 

[Wantingpeace]

Oh, don't hate yourself! It's not as if it's easy.

I made another post about this but have you read about pong seeds? As far as poisoning goes they seem to have a high fatality rate. And death comes along in <6 hours or so.

https://theblemish.com/2016/03/what-exactly-is-the-pong-seed/ sounds painful. I brought it up before but that is second account I read today of painful death by this?