deathLiberation

deathLiberation

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Oct 31, 2021
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Went on a trip and stood at the top of a 25 meters hightower.
It was kind of a scenic spot so there were some people around and climbing.

I took a few minutes looking down but somehow i felt the dirt wasnt as hard as concrete and there was also some grass. The idea of people passing and accidently hitting someone crossed my mind. So i cant risk getting broken and survive and i dont want to hurt anyone.

25 meters is not enough. Head first could work, but so much can go wrong. The fall would have been clean as it had no obstacles looking down.
I didnt feel afraid, i was actually excited to be in such an high place and finally exit this shitshow.

I´ll keep searching for a really high place. Accessible and without obstacles to stop me mid fall. Even if i have to travel de world to find it.
 
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illAF

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Jun 19, 2023
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Went on a trip and stood at the top of a 25 meters hightower.
It was kind of a scenic spot so there were some people around and climbing.

I took a few minutes looking down but somehow i felt the dirt wasnt as hard as concrete and there was also some grass. The idea of people passing and accidently hitting someone crossed my mind. So i cant risk getting broken and survive and i dont want to hurt anyone.

25 meters is not enough. Head first could work, but so much can go wrong. The fall would have been clean as it had no obstacles looking down.
I didnt feel afraid, i was actually excited to be in such an high place and finally exit this shitshow.

I´ll keep searching for a really high place. Accessible and without obstacles to stop me mid fall. Even if i have to travel de world to find it.
You didn't feel afraid at all ? I'm desesperatly looking on how to overcome my fear of jumping 😮‍💨
 
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deathLiberation

deathLiberation

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Oct 31, 2021
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No. I really want to exist this existence. But im beyond the life conditions i already did so much and my life was/is not awful when compared to some. It´s just that existence itself, the sick design it presents, is something im tired of.

That´s why im taking my time planning.
If i could i would do it from an airplane actually.

If you still fear it, then dont do it. I dont fear dying, i just fear surviving.
 
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deomlez

Not english native speaker. Ctb is my life.
May 19, 2023
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Niagara falls isn't an appropriate place ?
Or take a plane for free jump... and just jump...
Or deltaplane...
 
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venuemidnight

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Nov 21, 2022
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No. I really want to exist this existence. But im beyond the life conditions i already did so much and my life was/is not awful when compared to some. It´s just that existence itself, the sick design it presents, is something im tired of.

That´s why im taking my time planning.
If i could i would do it from an airplane actually.

If you still fear it, then dont do it. I dont fear dying, i just fear surviving.
This is literally the only reason I haven't attempted recently. I just want a method that's pretty much guaranteed, I don't even care if it's painful at this point.
 
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FuneralCry

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Sep 24, 2020
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I wish you the best with your plans, I certainly understand feeling so tired of this dreadful existence.
 
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