Story I started talking to the same online girl who had abandoned me. For 15 days she was present, and then she abandoned me again

[Crematoryy]

We talked on voice calls, and she cried to me, asking for forgiveness for her actions. She told me about being abused by her two uncles in childhood; she said she still had feelings for me, and told me to trust her again. She cried, saying it wasn't fair that I felt so alone and lost. She was showering while on the call with me.

Why did she decide to leave? Yesterday, March 22nd, 2026, we were talking, and I said, "You can't disregard everything I did; maybe it was a mistake for me to support someone who sees me as disposable." I said, "You woke up and didn't say 'good morning,' so I decided to do my chores before talking to you again." I wanted to have an active voice in our relationship, instead of swallowing what bothered me. And she left, over something so trivial. I gave my best; I took care of my body to please her. I trusted her twice, and history repeated itself. Maybe I'll try talking to her again on another phone number, but not now. She doesn't deserve my love, even though I don't want to accept that truth. I always gave everything (oh god...) I gave everything of myself to someone.

The thing is, nobody can replace the presence she offered me. I have a deep emotional dependence on her. I'm crying, and crying, and crying. My dream was to have met this person. But that's out of my control.

All I wanted was to have someone to talk to at home when I got back from work.

I used to share things that happened on this forum with her, and that annoyed her a bit, because she would tell me, "I'm your support person, you should look for a real person and not strangers." It sounds ironic to remember, I'm right here, and she chose to exclude me.

We talked on voice calls, and she cried to me, asking for forgiveness for her actions. She told me about being abused by her two uncles in childhood; she said she still had feelings for me, and told me to trust her again. She cried, saying it wasn't fair that I felt so alone and lost. She was showering while on the call with me.

Why did she decide to leave? Yesterday, March 22nd, 2026, we were talking, and I said, "You can't disregard everything I did; maybe it was a mistake for me to support someone who sees me as disposable." I said, "You woke up and didn't say 'good morning,' so I decided to do my chores before talking to you again." I wanted to have an active voice in our relationship, instead of swallowing what bothered me. And she left, over something so trivial. I gave my best; I took care of my body to please her. I trusted her twice, and history repeated itself. Maybe I'll try talking to her again on another phone number, but not now. She doesn't deserve my love, even though I don't want to accept that truth. I always gave everything (oh god...) I gave everything of myself to someone.

The thing is, nobody can replace the presence she offered me. I have a deep emotional dependence on her. I'm crying, and crying, and crying. My dream was to have met this person. But that's out of my control.

All I wanted was to have someone to talk to at home when I got back from work.

I used to share things that happened on this forum with her, and that annoyed her a bit, because she would tell me, "I'm your support person, you should look for a real person and not strangers." It sounds ironic to remember, I'm right here, and she chose to exclude me.

I wanted someone who would never leave. Someone who would love me the way I love myself. I'm sooooooo lonelyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ...

 

[hurb]

im so sorry mannnnnnnn, that pain is the worstttttttttttttttttttttt

 

[Crematoryy]

im so sorry mannnnnnnn, that pain is the worstttttttttttttttttttttt

Your presence makes my pain acknowledged. Thank you for coexisting.

 

[Proxycake]

Fuck, this has happened to me so many times, I am so sorry. It HURTS. I know that pain, and no one should have to go through it. Being that afraid and insecure in a relationship, assuming someone is just going to disappear again, is terrifying. I won't tell you what to do on this, because I'm sure you are weighing the options enough yourself. But try to look into the future, not just the present.

 

[The Disqualified]

I am assuming it was an online relationship. I don't have much context; however, I can feel the pain in your words. You really sound lonely and hurt, and I empathize with that, deeply so. I never had romantic relationships, but the loneliness breaks me as well.
I imagine it must be even more painful when you have a close connection like that, only for it to be broken shortly after in an abrupt way. It really must be devastating.
Feel free to vent or reflect about this. I hope you improve. Sending virtual hugs.

 

[TheLastGreySky]

We talked on voice calls, and she cried to me, asking for forgiveness for her actions. She told me about being abused by her two uncles in childhood; she said she still had feelings for me, and told me to trust her again. She cried, saying it wasn't fair that I felt so alone and lost. She was showering while on the call with me.

Why did she decide to leave? Yesterday, March 22nd, 2026, we were talking, and I said, "You can't disregard everything I did; maybe it was a mistake for me to support someone who sees me as disposable." I said, "You woke up and didn't say 'good morning,' so I decided to do my chores before talking to you again." I wanted to have an active voice in our relationship, instead of swallowing what bothered me. And she left, over something so trivial. I gave my best; I took care of my body to please her. I trusted her twice, and history repeated itself. Maybe I'll try talking to her again on another phone number, but not now. She doesn't deserve my love, even though I don't want to accept that truth. I always gave everything (oh god...) I gave everything of myself to someone.

The thing is, nobody can replace the presence she offered me. I have a deep emotional dependence on her. I'm crying, and crying, and crying. My dream was to have met this person. But that's out of my control.

All I wanted was to have someone to talk to at home when I got back from work.

I used to share things that happened on this forum with her, and that annoyed her a bit, because she would tell me, "I'm your support person, you should look for a real person and not strangers." It sounds ironic to remember, I'm right here, and she chose to exclude me.

I wanted someone who would never leave. Someone who would love me the way I love myself. I'm sooooooo lonelyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ...

Hey, I'm going to be 150% real with you. No filter. If someone left you for any reason whatsoever...ever... EVER... and came back... Then I need you to understand the truth and not be blinded by your ego or anything else.

They came back to feed their egos.
Because it was never about you.
You were someone they were using for self-esteem or to feel a little less lonely.
The male and the female brain work drastically different, so combine this with numerous pathologies and variations, and the likelihood of understanding this person's truth becomes miniscule at best.

She left. And she left again...
And honestly she probably wants you to think she'll come back again...
She won't.

And the truth is, you deserve so much better than someone who plays bullshit games.
If you were not more valuable than she is to herself... She would not have to devalue you to gain self-esteem. But you can never fix someone like this. You can never change her.

Now you can spend the rest of your life wondering if the good times you spent with her were ever real... Or you can accept the reality that if they were real to her she would have never left.

Never let them see you sweat.
Just build yourself up and then replace.
If by some "miracle" she returns please please please do yourself a favor... And just say "omg stop being so needy" and block her.
Anything else in she'll manipulate you into another emotional spiral. I'm just trying to save you the trouble and the pain. But you do you.