
The lonelyest soul
New Member
- Oct 2, 2022
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I have cancer, its aggressive but there is a chance I can recover. If it turns out to be terminal then I want to go out on my terms, none of this comatose in a hospital bed while nurses and my family wipe my arse and cry waiting for the invevatable to happen.
The thing is I want to depart with the least amount of fuss. I don't want my family to be left in debt when I pass, so I started paying off my own funeral a few years ago, before I was diognised and a still have a lot to still pay off. If I leave of natural causes, they will honor it. I will get the funeral and the rest of the debt goes with me. If I don't pass naturally then my family will either be left settling up the bill and possibly getting into debt.
So my options are, try and find a way that makes it seem natural
let nature take its course if I do become terminal and go slow and painfully with no dignaty.
Try and hope that if I do become terminal, it won't be for a while yet, and can pay it all off and then I can go out how ever I like.
I'm a pessimist and like to plan for the worst, So I was thinking maybe going camping and "accidently" eating a wrong mushroom or somehow having my tent too close to the campfire after I have taken the maxamum dose of all my drugs (because my pain is really bad and needed alot of help to go to sleep*wink**wink*) and being unable to wake up in time to escape.
Both have their risks, but at this point I'm just spit balling.
I just think it's unfair that they put animals to sleep if they are going tk die but prolong the suffering of humans.
The thing is I want to depart with the least amount of fuss. I don't want my family to be left in debt when I pass, so I started paying off my own funeral a few years ago, before I was diognised and a still have a lot to still pay off. If I leave of natural causes, they will honor it. I will get the funeral and the rest of the debt goes with me. If I don't pass naturally then my family will either be left settling up the bill and possibly getting into debt.
So my options are, try and find a way that makes it seem natural
let nature take its course if I do become terminal and go slow and painfully with no dignaty.
Try and hope that if I do become terminal, it won't be for a while yet, and can pay it all off and then I can go out how ever I like.
I'm a pessimist and like to plan for the worst, So I was thinking maybe going camping and "accidently" eating a wrong mushroom or somehow having my tent too close to the campfire after I have taken the maxamum dose of all my drugs (because my pain is really bad and needed alot of help to go to sleep*wink**wink*) and being unable to wake up in time to escape.
Both have their risks, but at this point I'm just spit balling.
I just think it's unfair that they put animals to sleep if they are going tk die but prolong the suffering of humans.