NSFW I self harmed today.

[Littlewittlelight]

I am shaking as I write this I self harmed last night and I did it I was remembering how I just end up belie

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ving in people and I am disappointed always in them in the end they don't care. They stay as long as they need me. The world is so selfish from offline to online and I really got it out today. I told them clearly that they are a liar and a bitch clearly. I am sorry but I literally thought this person cared but they only wanted me to hear their stories and blah blah and be stupid then tell me things and go back on it everytime. I just hope they too rot away after I am dead because I am going in a couple months or three months dude hopefully. I really wish I do it someday and their god is watching too and their beliefs can go fuck them and the big fucking ships who would swing their dicks over eachother's heads. Whole world is fake it's ig and social media people are too consumed by I'd they can use it but they won't be ready to talk to you and they are too much of a liar. I will not take anything and fuck myself hopefully. I am just hurt but I am not going back to be fooled I said nice things so they themselves block me. I just got stuck again and it hurts that I still was not willing to leave I hopefully think they block me and they are just asshole who comes to realise that lying doesn't make the world a better place and they can fuck their emotions I will fuck mine. Turn them off.

 

[theboy]

No:( stop cutting yourself
I hope you feel better soon

 

[lionetta12]

I am shaking as I write this I self harmed last night and I did it I was remembering how I just end up belie

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ving in people and I am disappointed always in them in the end they don't care. They stay as long as they need me. The world is so selfish from offline to online and I really got it out today. I told them clearly that they are a liar and a bitch clearly. I am sorry but I literally thought this person cared but they only wanted me to hear their stories and blah blah and be stupid then tell me things and go back on it everytime. I just hope they too rot away after I am dead because I am going in a couple months or three months dude hopefully. I really wish I do it someday and their god is watching too and their beliefs can go fuck them and the big fucking ships who would swing their dicks over eachother's heads. Whole world is fake it's ig and social media people are too consumed by I'd they can use it but they won't be ready to talk to you and they are too much of a liar. I will not take anything and fuck myself hopefully. I am just hurt but I am not going back to be fooled I said nice things so they themselves block me. I just got stuck again and it hurts that I still was not willing to leave I hopefully think they block me and they are just asshole who comes to realise that lying doesn't make the world a better place and they can fuck their emotions I will fuck mine. Turn them off.

Please try to take care of the cuts if you're able to, having infections and stuff is real painful and a hazzle. I'm sorry for what you went through.

 

[Littlewittlelight]

Please try to take care of the cuts if you're able to, having infections and stuff is real painful and a hazzle. I'm sorry for what you went through.

Infections I use a blade only once and use a disinfectant after some time. I would surely look myself later on rn gonna go and I would appreciate your response as you seem to know what to do. what else do I do? When I did i didn't care but I surely don't want anything like that die even more painfully. I got much of it out I really got hurt because of my mistakes I will try not to self harm again.

No:( stop cutting yourself
I hope you feel better soon

It just happened I didn't want to buy thanks for your words. I felt relieved I think I really did it was my first time. I could just post somewhere but I wanted to talk if the self harmers here are still into it. I am als thankful I could just show it and also write here

 

[lionetta12]

Infections I use a blade only once and use a disinfectant after some time. I would surely look myself later on rn gonna go and I would appreciate your response as you seem to know what to do. what else do I do? When I did i didn't care but I surely don't want anything like that die even more painfully. I got much of it out I really got hurt because of my mistakes I will try not to self harm again.

That's good to hear at least. I've cut myself a few times but I care a lot about my health in general and appearance so I first of all clean the cuts to make sure the risk of infection is as low as it can be. I then let it air dry for a little and then put dry post-surgery bandaids over the cuts. Those usually last and are waterproof, for up to 1 week, before needing to change bandaids again. I use these because this is what I got told to use for all my cosmetic surgeries by my surgeon on every cut, and to continue using it for a few months to avoid scars. It's worked pretty well so far, both with my surgical cuts and my self harm cuts. All of them healed without any infections or issues and I have no scars on my body.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's true that most people don't care at all, nowhere is free from the cruelty and selfishness of humans. It's just the way that people are. There is already enough suffering in this world without other people making things worse.
I'm sorry that you are going through all this. I wish you relief.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

How are you know?

 

[Littlewittlelight]

How are you know?

I am okay now I really feel better and I got so much of it out and now I am ready to move on from that person. I really thank you for asking and appreciate each question and answer.

It's true that most people don't care at all, nowhere is free from the cruelty and selfishness of humans. It's just the way that people are. There is already enough suffering in this world without other people making things worse.
I'm sorry that you are going through all this. I wish you relief.

Yeah I just realised I reached my limit. It was my mistake I should know how to contain my emotions and forget people if they don't want me but I did this but it's okay as long as I am doing it to myself and it was just a day maybe. I don't self harm actually.

That's good to hear at least. I've cut myself a few times but I care a lot about my health in general and appearance so I first of all clean the cuts to make sure the risk of infection is as low as it can be. I then let it air dry for a little and then put dry post-surgery bandaids over the cuts. Those usually last and are waterproof, for up to 1 week, before needing to change bandaids again. I use these because this is what I got told to use for all my cosmetic surgeries by my surgeon on every cut, and to continue using it for a few months to avoid scars. It's worked pretty well so far, both with my surgical cuts and my self harm cuts. All of them healed without any infections or issues and I have no scars on my body.

Thanks for the info I appreciate it. I haven't yet been able to take care of them but I don't have urge to do it anymore either so let's see and yes I think I am going to also get alcohol swabs they would be better and more handy. I think I wouldn't care much about scars if they are covered but let's see.

That's good to hear at least. I've cut myself a few times but I care a lot about my health in general and appearance so I first of all clean the cuts to make sure the risk of infection is as low as it can be. I then let it air dry for a little and then put dry post-surgery bandaids over the cuts. Those usually last and are waterproof, for up to 1 week, before needing to change bandaids again. I use these because this is what I got told to use for all my cosmetic surgeries by my surgeon on every cut, and to continue using it for a few months to avoid scars. It's worked pretty well so far, both with my surgical cuts and my self harm cuts. All of them healed without any infections or issues and I have no scars on my body.

That's nice that they all healed I am glad. It's great that you took care of them rn I don't know why I just left them I didn't even clean them again. If I continue I would surely do with your suggestions

 

[MidnightDream]

I'm with you. I relapsed the other night too. It's okay. My dms are always open

 

[Littlewittlelight]

I'm with you. I relapsed the other night too. It's okay. My dms are always open

Thank you mine are open for anyone too. If I don't reply then I am either offline or have forgotten to see PMs or not seeing for some reasons. Thanks again. Was a pleasure to talk to you.

 

[planningmyexit]

Relapsed the other day after 2 months clean. Burnt my leg with a cigarette lighter a few times. Actually helped me feel better but not something I want to do again.

 

[Outandproud]

False friend, cheating girlfriend, who was ? And yes, almost nobody cares they are kind for interest.. when their needs are satisfied thell go prey for another

Relapsed the other day after 2 months clean. Burnt my leg with a cigarette lighter a few times. Actually helped me feel better but not something I want to do again.

Relapse on what.. im trying no to drink since my mother is staying at my place for a few days, its getting hard, just feeding my anxiety for alcohol with sleeping pills

 

[Littlewittlelight]

False friend, cheating girlfriend, who was ? And yes, almost nobody cares they are kind for interest.. when their needs are satisfied thell go prey for another

Relapse on what.. im trying no to drink since my mother is staying at my place for a few days, its getting hard, just feeding my anxiety for alcohol with sleeping pills

I really have so much to say and get out but I don't want to because it doesn't help and I understand what you are saying. The world just works that way.

 

[Outandproud]

Relapsed the other day after 2 months clean. Burnt my leg with a cigarette lighter a few times. Actually helped me feel better but not something I want to do again.

Relapse on sh Ok

 

[Littlewittlelight]

Relapsed the other day after 2 months clean. Burnt my leg with a cigarette lighter a few times. Actually helped me feel better but not something I want to do again.

I hope you feel better and not harm yourself

 

[planningmyexit]

I hope you feel better and not harm yourself

Thanks. I am feeling better. I got my vape replaced that some scumbag stole from me so that has helped me out a lot. Not doing great but better.

 

[Littlewittlelight]

Thanks. I am feeling better. I got my vape replaced that some scumbag stole from me so that has helped me out a lot. Not doing great but better.

That sounds better I am glad you are doing better.

 

[Littlewittlelight]

Spoiler: NSFW(SELF HARM)

I did it again it hurt this time but it feels better I think I need to do a couple more times and it feels I maybe able to endure more when time comes. It is now like practice but I can't go deep enough I don't even want to and there is no need. I realised why I couldn't feel any pain that day maybe I was feeling worse and bad enough. Either way now it's okay.
this feels different when you aren't desperate because when my day is fucked up I call it a normal day so yeah it has to be like someone showing me their true colors or not giving the attention. I don't care about it but when someone says so many things and then act like we don't know eachother that's when I got hurt. The words *I don't message first* make me realise how everyone is just hiding and can show their true colors anytime. Thank you for another lesson today
-End the rant now