I refuse to commit to recovery or death

[hurts2b]

I want, somehow, both to recover and die all at once. Weird limbo to be in. One minute I can't stand another fucking second on this planet, the next I'm having soothing fantasies re: the future. Makes no sense. God help me.

 

[Aknu132]

I feel sorry for you, i'm on the same situation, and it's not great to not stick on a decision.

 

[hosoc]

I want, somehow, both to recover and die all at once. Weird limbo to be in. One minute I can't stand another fucking second on this planet, the next I'm having soothing fantasies re: the future. Makes no sense. God help me.

I'm also suffering from this, you can try to pinpoint
why do you feel like this?
what made you feel like this?
what are the things you can change to stop feeling like that?
Once you get that
Try to do little things which gives you hope and change your mindset about wanting to die and commit to recovering if that's what you want
Change your habits which can influence your suicidal thoughts
Do what you like build different hobbies like reading, writing, going out
It all comes down to your thought process, Bcz thoughts leads to action
I do this it may not cure your depression but you'll feel better

 

[yotaka]

"If neurotic is wanting two mutually exclusive things at one and the same time, then I'm neurotic as hell. I'll be flying back and forth between one mutually exclusive thing and another for the rest of my days." (from The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath)