Venting I refuse to be a wage slave. So I will CTB, simple as that

[Defatigatis]

My parents' death benefits will expire next month, so i will have to start relying on my brother for support, who salary approximately gets around what i'm gaining in total with the benefits.
I propped him for quite some time with my wages, but honestly, i wouldn't want to be propped and hear that i need to get a job, something he has already started telling me — ironic, since i never asked that of him in all those years after our parents died.
I refuse to try to adapt to a system that i already know that will make me sick in a very short time and make me CTB anyway. So, i'll just go ahead and get things done earlier.

 

[Hollowman]

It's one of the main reasons I need to go too.

 

[twitter]

It's one of the main reasons I need to go too.

My parents' death benefits will expire next month, so i will have to start relying on my brother for support, who salary approximately gets around what i'm gaining in total with the benefits.
I propped him for quite some time with my wages, but honestly, i wouldn't want to be propped and hear that i need to get a job, something he has already started telling me — ironic, since i never asked that of him in all those years after our parents died.
I refuse to try to adapt to a system that i already know that will make me sick in a very short time and make me CTB anyway. So, i'll just go ahead and get things done earlier.

Same here. It drives me crazy just how much this world is reliant on finances.

 

[itsgone2]

Same here. It drives me crazy just how much this world is reliant on finances.

I feel so stupid because I'm only now realizing it's the only thing that matters.
It makes life seem more meaningless but it's true. The only thing that matters is work.
I'm not saying things like family aren't important, but it's hard for anything to matter if you're broke.

 

[twitter]

I feel so stupid because I'm only now realizing it's the only thing that matters.
It makes life seem more meaningless but it's true. The only thing that matters is work.
I'm not saying things like family aren't important, but it's hard for anything to matter if you're broke.

Yes, you're very right.

Obviously - as you said - there are things that are important other than money. But in reality, to you specifically, good standing and money is the only thing that truly matters in todays world.

It's disgusting to me. I can't stand this world. There's no freedom here. It's all "be born well off or slave off".

Of course I'm not saying you can't climb up from poverty, but it's not something realistic or easy at all, especially for someone with mental problems.

 

[Off_Switch]

Same here. It drives me crazy just how much this world is reliant on finances.

I don't mind working for money to survive. I'm just sick of all the brain dead people I have to work with and all the criminals and gougers that try to dishonestly take the money I work hard for.

 

[Defatigatis]

I couldn't agree more with all of you. It's truly debilitating that without money you are literally nobody.

Sim, você está certíssimo.

Obviamente, como você disse, há coisas importantes além de dinheiro. Mas, na realidade, para você especificamente, boa reputação e dinheiro são as únicas coisas que realmente importam no mundo de hoje.

É nojento para mim. Não suporto este mundo. Não há liberdade aqui. É tudo "nascer rico ou viver como escravo".

Claro que não estou dizendo que você não pode sair da pobreza, mas não é algo realista nem fácil, especialmente para alguém com problemas mentais.

Além disso, na maioria das vezes, o "empreendedorismo" promovido é apenas mais uma forma de escravidão disfarçada de autonomia.

 

[itsgone2]

So I have two major issues right now and both are this topic. One I'd rather not discuss at this point, but the other is that I'm about to lose my third job in life because of an acquisition. wtf are we supposed to do? Loyalty means nothing. I've been here more than a decade. Was planning to retire here. Now the sell to some f**king private equity place and we're all doomed. Plus just constant downsizing and outsourcing. Peoples lives get ruined!!!! I was doing well in life actually then this hit and bam I'm wanting to ctb. Like I said there is another issue but it's related. Work is all that matters and even when you secure it and work hard you still get screwed.

 

[Kimlett]

Totally get it. Corporate work makes me sick. I'm trying to explore options like becoming a dietitian or a nurse, It's still slaving but at least I can help people, I guess... I wish you the best whatever you decide.

 

[Sunset Limited]

This is the most important reason for my CTB. Life forces a choice between money and honor. Working on a resource-scarce, savage planet, to endure suffering until entropy consumes me? I have never been, and will never be, a beggar for a little more time on this stupid planet.

 

[Liebestod]

Understandable it's one of my reasons as well.

 

[NonEssential]

Work, relationships and many other accomplishments are things I'm too lazy, dumb and overall too pathetic to succeed at.

 

[WrathfulGloom32]

Ye, even if I were to learn and get an above average job (which is not outside my reach at all, only need a little commitment) I don't see a reason to do so, I could use the money to help animals and animals live between 2-20 years, what if I want to CTB in 4 years? What then? are my animals going to get taken away and slaughtered? after so many good years? just get their freedom taken away from them? why even bother in the first place. While I want to do good, I have no energy for it and I don't think I owe any living being my time or getting gaslighted about living, I never really liked people who'd say "I'd only help or donate to animals/sick people if everyone did it" but...I'd start working if the world got better and EVERYONE actually cared (edit: I do have a normal retail 9 to 5 for now but I don't know how long it's going to last), but we all know that's not going to happen. And it's not even the same thing as I DO help when I can, I just don't want to sacrifice 100% of myself for it and revenge seems to be counter intuitive to it all, would have been better to have never been born, no choice seems acceptable.

 

[Alice.]

thinking about these kinds of things makes me angry.

i've helped out at various places every now and then for informal volunteer work, but i've never had an actual job.

i don't think i could reliably hold one down. everything gets old and boring for me really fast, whether it's a game, show, website, hell even my computer's operating system and core software. i bet i'd want to change where i live if i had the means to do so.

when something gets boring to me, i lose all interest and i cant find it in me to stay with that thing. if i had to work at an office or a fast food place i think quit within a week or go insane.

there's two things i think about that make it worse for me. first of all, this is an arbitrary system forced onto me with no legal way out of it, im expected to just accept it, live with it, and not question it. i was never given the choice of what system i want to live in. i was assigned one and was expected to accept these ideas and be against anything that doesn't align or agree with them.

the second thing is, there's exceptions to this work requirement. i'm mostly talking about people born into rich families, but there are other instances of people getting rich for some stupid or arbitrary reason, people who have done nothing to deserve it. i have nothing against people born into rich families, though i still cant help resenting them because they have something i don't, money. there's a lot more i wanted to write here but i don't want to think about this right now

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I'm back to SaSu after "finding God" 8 months ago. It was a bipolar manic episode, of course. I'm old (36) and deeply embarrassed by my latest shenanigans and don't know how I could turn my life around and start earning money. I live at home. I've been screwing up since college (dropped out with a semester to go). Almost 14 years since the thought of suicide first arrived and I've been treading water. The fact that getting better would mean menial work is just crushing. I already blew my chances.

I don't have money for a gun or nitrogen. Considering hanging, charcoal, or maybe throat cut, but I know cutting is not advised.

 

[sanction]

I can't imagine waking up everyday, just to force myself to keep fighting and building towards a meaningless future that I don't even want to be in.

And then put so much endless effort into making myself being stuck in it.

It's the true definition of torture and hell.

100% will just regret it