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nuggetfinder

nuggetfinder

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Sep 15, 2025
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I FEEL FREEEEEE.
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No but seriously, the world and everyone around me is so anti suicide it's so annoying. "You have so much to live for" "Keep trying." "Things get better." "Committing is not the way" SHHHHHHH. You're literally not talking me out of this. Being in a space where I can not only be free with my thoughts, but also read posts from others relating and not pushing me to seek help is so relieving.

Im so used to people trying to talk me out of my current mindset that sometimes when I post darker thoughts I expect people to tell me to seek help LMAO. But no! That's not how it works here and I love it so much. I feel less alone about everything when I come online here, it's like a breath of fresh air. Genuinely. I just wanted to drop this off, i've been thinking about this for a little bit.
 
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Lone_Gray_Wolf

Lone_Gray_Wolf

Fate plays chess with 2 queens
Aug 21, 2020
278
I get you, I felt the same back then. I guess being in a space where you can say anything does have it's advantages.

Also...
I know you are an FBI Agent...
I just can't prove it... yet.

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TheEndIsPeace

TheEndIsPeace

Member
Sep 27, 2025
88
I agree. This place gives me a big sense of peace. The more I am on here the less scared I get of the idea of CTB.
 
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Greyhawk

Greyhawk

Student
Jan 3, 2025
171
I get you, I felt the same back then. I guess being in a space where you can say anything does have it's advantages.

Also...
I know you are an FBI Agent...
I just can't prove it... yet.

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Doakes is fucking amazing.
 
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sanctionedusage

sanctionedusage

sanctioned sausage
Sep 17, 2025
628
for me this place IS the 'help.' it helps so much to clear my head. doesn't make suicide this terrifying and lonely action, but also helps me view my living situation objectively and make a rational decision rather than an emotional one. the support is just endless and there's no judging, no matter what you decide. no taboos, no infantilizing, no social media status mechanisms like karma/followers/upvotes/'likes' in the traditional sense. it feels like true anonymity and safety which i can't say for any other platform trying to make a space like this one.
 
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peewee

Specialist
Oct 16, 2025
351
im grateful for it too, it makes me less afraid, it stopped me from doing a method that might have messed me up (jumping). I hate all the negative stuff i see about this site its the only place i feel safe and understood...it makes me less afraid
 
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WhiteSkinRedBlood

WhiteSkinRedBlood

Member
Aug 17, 2025
20
I love it too. It's a miracle for me that this site exists as there's so much misinformation about suicide out there and I'd probably keep doing overdoses if I didn't know any better.
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,824
Indeed, it's a happy place 😊
 
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Cauliflour

Cauliflour

I'm the doodler, I make terrible doodles.
Mar 24, 2025
717
Marry I love how the nitty gritty details of suicide are talked about here but also I think it gave me imposter syndrome cause I see people like full on venting on this forum and like I feel like I'm not fucked in the head enough to warrant taking up electricity being here but then again I was laughing at videos of pedophiles getting set on fire at 1 am a few days ago so maybe this is the best place for me...

If I didn't find out about this site then I'll probably be in some shitty NHS mental hospital rn, internally screaming.
 
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sanction

sanctioned
Mar 15, 2019
710
In actual reality, what percentage of people out there in the real world, do you think secretly have these suicidal thoughts (or similar thoughts) but keep it privately to themselves, and never share it with others, because don't want to be judged?

For example, out of every 10 people, how many people you estimate probably also have these similar thoughts and feelings?
 
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badatparties

badatparties

Elementalist
Mar 16, 2025
814
I think about 50 percent of the country is passively suicidal lol.
 
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nuggetfinder

nuggetfinder

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Sep 15, 2025
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In actual reality, what percentage of people out there in the real world, do you think secretly have these suicidal thoughts (or similar thoughts) but keep it privately to themselves, and never share it with others, because don't want to be judged?

For example, out of every 10 people, how many people you estimate probably also have these similar thoughts and feelings?
Honestly, id go with at least 3/10 people and that could be very wrong.
 
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