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perfectstorm

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Jul 28, 2023
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I am 60 yo. My ex husband cheated and left me w a newborn and I had no family support. He paid support but did little to help. I was ok w that.

Fast forward, I had given up my career and knew I had nothing for my retirement so I sold my house and bought a house with two little apartments for income. It was a good plan, I'd be set.

Trouble is, the inspector I hired was dirty w my real estate agent and the place was uninhabitable. We had to evacuate and ended up in foreclosure

No agency could help. The attorney I hired was a disaster and sued the wrong people, took my settlement. Bar complaints fix nothing.

He wasted 13 years in court and I had a stroke waiting for resolution. The foreclosure took 13 years. I was paying rent somewhere that whole time with child support which ran out. My son is 23 now.

I lost everything. Even my bed is still in the abandoned house I bought. We slept on air mattresses


So I am left with a tiny savings that does me no good. I dont qualify for disability even though I cannot walk bc I gave up my career to raise my son


I got mixed up in a new predatory loan from a corrupt lawyer and have another mortgage that I can't pay. But if I ctb and my son sells this house, he would have $100k after the loan is paid off. That is huge and makes me happy. If I ctb, he wont be stuck helping me. He can sell this and have a good start in life. My life got ruined, there is no hope. But he will thrive if I go. I will die someday soon naturally but no good will come pf it. This way he will benefit. Sadness goes away. The eskimos have a tradition of sending old useless people to sea on ice chunks to die, which benefits those left who are living on limited resources. I want an ice chunk I think.

Just venting, low day.
 
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