peacefulnights
star gazer
- Jan 15, 2026
- 37
It is a ideology I believe in mainly because my family/childhood was very much in its own grave to start. Given this economy as well its hard to be fully independent in my field. I would like to think that God gives second chances to those who had a horrible life in the first. I survived and triumphed through so much, and I continue to do so but economics and life just becomes increasingly hard. You have people like me with 2000+ job applications, networking, etc. for the chance of an interview that could possibly pay for rent, food, water, healthcare, and then you have Trump and the Billionares with what they use a day being something I could live on the rest of my life. I've worked my butt off to escape horrible households, only to graduate from an amazing college and then getting laid off from my first job. Company's fault, whatever, we keep going and try again. Keep applying, but entry level jobs require 2-7 years of experience?? I have been running from horrible situations, surviving, not living, for as long as I have been alive.
I want to breathe deep, let my shoulders rest, let myself be bored and calm. I envy those who have that. Death is the closest I can get. It seems peaceful. Maybe in my next life it will be different. Maybe not. I am proud of how far I have come and what I achieved. Maybe in my next life I can have a family, be loved, not have to keep running. Be supported in what I want to do, ambitious or not.
I want to breathe deep, let my shoulders rest, let myself be bored and calm. I envy those who have that. Death is the closest I can get. It seems peaceful. Maybe in my next life it will be different. Maybe not. I am proud of how far I have come and what I achieved. Maybe in my next life I can have a family, be loved, not have to keep running. Be supported in what I want to do, ambitious or not.
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