I only ever wanted to be loved.

[HFK40000]

The only thing I really wanted was to build a life with someone who loves me as much as I love them. I believe I have fallen in love with two people and both end in tragedy. The first one cheated on me and I found out from a mutual friend. The second one was experiencing a lot of anxiety from her job and she said "she could not fulfill the needs of the relationship due to her stress" Two months after she left me she already had a new job and a new partner. I'm going to be 29 in less than two weeks. I believe that if I was meant to fall in love it would have happened by now. I cannot imagine a life where I have to get older alive. Life is miserable enough as it is. I have tried so hard to become a person worthy of life but it's never enough. I have a constant job, stable housing, savings & investments and I'm not terrible looking. I am educated, I have lots of hobbies and experiences but it all means nothing if I have to do it without someone to love. I would give anything to have one more chance with my ex.

 

[CrawlingInMySkin]

I feel this, mate. I truly do. You're not alone in this experience. Once an ex of mine broke up with me and got together with a friend of mine just a couple months later. There are some shitty people in this world. Just really, fuckin' horrible people. I share the same thing with you mate, I think most people on this forum just want someone to love who loves them back. Stay strong, mate, and don't give in unless you're truly sure you're ready to go. Who knows, maybe we'll both find someone for us. Love and peace, brother

 

[HFK40000]

I feel this, mate. I truly do. You're not alone in this experience. Once an ex of mine broke up with me and got together with a friend of mine just a couple months later. There are some shitty people in this world. Just really, fuckin' horrible people. I share the same thing with you mate, I think most people on this forum just want someone to love who loves them back. Stay strong, mate, and don't give in unless you're truly sure you're ready to go. Who knows, maybe we'll both find someone for us. Love and peace, brother

Thank you for the thoughtful response. It really is a shame to see so many of us who are literally dying for love. I'm ready to let go for a lot of reasons but not finding love we the big one. I really hope that you find a person who treats you well and loves you. You deserve that and so much more.

 

[CrawlingInMySkin]

Thank you for the thoughtful response. It really is a shame to see so many of us who are literally dying for love. I'm ready to let go for a lot of reasons but not finding love we the big one. I really hope that you find a person who treats you well and loves you. You deserve that and so much more.

As do you, mate remember, you've always got us here to come back to. This forum is a group of miserable people who life hasn't treated right, and nobody here deserves it. Do you by chance listen to music a lot or find it comforting? If you need some like song recommendations for a mood I can help with that but that's about as much as I can do other than talking with you, sorry lol. I'll talk for a while if you want tho!

 

[Gild-Holm-’Ur]

Hoping for you both. I found wonderful people in my 30s and 50s.

 

[CrawlingInMySkin]

Hoping for you both. I found wonderful people in my 30s and 50s.

I'm glad, mate! Happy for you, everyone deserves someone. Also looks like you're new! Welcome to the forum, you'll find a great band of misfits here, I've met some of the kindest people on this site. Maybe I'll see you around! Love and peace, my friend

 

[HFK40000]

As do you, mate remember, you've always got us here to come back to. This forum is a group of miserable people who life hasn't treated right, and nobody here deserves it. Do you by chance listen to music a lot or find it comforting? If you need some like song recommendations for a mood I can help with that but that's about as much as I can do other than talking with you, sorry lol. I'll talk for a while if you want tho!

Thank you. This forum is one of the only places I can actually talk about what's on my mind. Music is actually my passion and I unfortunately don't have any talent to make it myself so I dedicated myself to listening to as much as I can. I'm always open for recommendations. What do you have in mind?

 

[CrawlingInMySkin]

Whoo! fellow music enthusiast found. I've got songs to recommend you, but it depends on your mood. This Velvet Glove by RHCP might be good for melancholy and wallowing in sadness. give it a listen if that's what you're feeling!

 

[HFK40000]

Hoping for you both. I found wonderful people in my 30s and 50s.

I'm happy to hear that for you. If I have to wait until my 30's or 50's then that is just more of a reason to end it now. The idea of growing old alone is my greatest fear.

Whoo! fellow music enthusiast found. I've got songs to recommend you, but it depends on your mood. This Velvet Glove by RHCP might be good for melancholy and wallowing in sadness. give it a listen if that's what you're feeling!

RHCP isn't my typical go to for melancholy. Right now I'm listening to "Songs About Leaving" by Carissa's Wierd and "your inner world is deeply uninteresting" by Spiral Staircase