I no longer do anything at all with my life

[Defenestration]

no work
no passion
Single
no activity
I spend my days staring at bullshit on the internet. I no longer want to make the slightest effort. I spent 20 to 35 years trying to heal but it didn't work...and for the last 2 years I've been letting myself go. I'm lazy.

I arrive at the paradox that I am almost happy when I am bad because it brings me closer to suicide. obviously because of the SI I stay alive and I don't ctb the last moment, but as I haven't made an effort to get better, I remain unwell.

obviously I would prefer to be well but as I cannot cure my psychological problems when I am well it lasts a few days and then I fall back...

I am not bad only drunk or codein...but its not a solution

GOD PLEASE KILL ME...

 

[swankysoup]

Damn i can relate. I have no more passion for anything.

 

[guitarsteve]

"Please God, 'kill me' - but God doesn't listen to losers like me. God gets off on letting me feel this way.

 

[Defenestration]

 

[KillingPain267]

Same

 

[DeadNotSleeping]

Yeah I relate to this more than I want to admit. Wish you the best of luck.

 

[Defenestration]

Shame of me
Hâte of me

 

[falling_snow]

life is a struggle, every passing moment is pain

 

[Defenestration]

la vie est une lutte, chaque instant qui passe est une douleur

Yes

 

[Deathw!sh]

Me too, I spend way to much time at the computer. I'd like a relationship with a woman, someone to hug and hopefully make the hollow feeling in my chest go away.