I never had a love to build me up, to be my reason for persevering

[Crematoryy]

I am alone every day, whether it brings pain or joy. My wounds are not consoled, my achievements are not celebrated. The whole world around me is completely indifferent to me. I am alone. I am not rewarded with sex or love messages after an exhausting day at work. Instead, my loneliness is doubled. My reason for existing is my own hatred for the world and all who reside in it. I was forged in resentment, envy, and loss. No physical pain in this world can equal the pain I have always felt. I rise only to fall again. This cursed world owes me many things, and I will not give up on reclaiming everything I deserve by committing suicide anytime soon! Everything would have been easier if I had someone to support me. But the echoes of my mind have always been my only company. I am alone in my pain, in my silent torment.

 

[Heavy_Metals117]

I like your pep talk, and you are definitely not alone in your constant pain. Maybe mine is not as bad as yours, but there are others who share it with you. I'm glad you're powering through though. I hope it pays off.