I don't know how to live another day. I'm certain i have BPD and i have destroyed my whole life. Every breath I take is just torture. I don't want to do this to my mum but she doesn't understand how much unbearable pain I'm in. It's too much to bare. I have posted previously about the plastic bag method and I think its the only thing I can manage to do. I'm at the stage of depression where I don't actually have the energy or means to plan a painless method. i just need to go now.
I'm sorry you're so desperate. It must be unbearable. Do you have an official BPD diagnosis? Have you ever consulted a psychiatrist?
No, but I'm pretty certain I have it. Pattern of unstable relationships and no sense of self. crippling emptiness inside. soemthing happened and i overreacted so severely i quit my entire life. now every minute is so anxiety inducing and i dont know how to go on, i cant imagine ever working again my whole personality has changed its truly terrifying. I really think I could suceed with the plastic bag method with enough determination, i have read accounts where it has been successful
I have had therapy on and off but therapy is too late once youve destroyed your life. they cant turn back time.
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LunarLight
i'm a loser, a failure
- Apr 3, 2024
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I'm sorry therapy didn't work for you. Have you tried meds? It helps some people, not everyone of course, but it's worth trying. Of course, you're in unbearable pain and you want it to end, but make sure you've really tried everything before CTBing. If you're in such pain, you've got nothing to lose.
