Venting I need to escape

[The Disqualified]

I need to escape. I need to go somewhere. I can't live like this anymore. I must take my life. I must run away. I must be alone. I can't live or go out anymore. It is too overwhelming, going outside, interacting with people, too overwhelming. I just want to escape everything. I dread human society. I feel two opposing forces, one wants to make me go forward and push through for whatever, if anything, may be on the other side, the other just wants me to go, escape.

I need to escape forever. To somewhere where no one can get me. Somewhere alone, peaceful, still, quiet. I need to escape.
Even if by suicide. Suicide will be my escape if everything else fails. Suicide is the sure way out. I must escape. Suicide may be the only I am escaping this one.

 

[sohopelessandempty]

I need to escape. I need to go somewhere. I can't live like this anymore. I must take my life. I must run away. I must be alone. I can't live or go out anymore. It is too overwhelming, going outside, interacting with people, too overwhelming. I just want to escape everything. I dread human society. I feel two opposing forces, one wants to make me go forward and push through for whatever, if anything, may be on the other side, the other just wants me to go, escape.

I need to escape forever. To somewhere where no one can get me. Somewhere alone, peaceful, still, quiet. I need to escape.
Even if by suicide. Suicide will be my escape if everything else fails. Suicide is the sure way out. I must escape. Suicide may be the only I am escaping this one.

I understand this feeling, being trapped is such an agonizing thing.