Help i need tips suicide + venting ab SA’er

[mittymittens]

i just found out my SA'er is spreading lies about me now (context in my other posts)
saying i'm telling everyone that i'm telling everyone she selfharmed
i been crying for hours even if i don't rly like her— even if i hated i wouldn't say such a thing so personal yet alone spread it.
i'm really done i dunno or maybe i just need to start planning or looking for a way to ctb i really can't do this anymore

need tips on:
what would be a good way to ctb? (keep in mind, i cannot drive, jumping off bridge isn't option or going anywhere, if i bought something obvious for suicide, my parents would know)

i heard survivals instinct is a thing so, how would i overcome it, and the guilt such as leaving my family and friends

i would need to start saving up money that's for sure

 

[FuneralCry]

There's a suicide resource complination on here with information about methods but to me it sounds like it would be especially difficult to ctb in a situation like that, suicide just isn't straightforward anyway but when it comes to methods all that anyone can do, is just do their own research. And I think with the survival instinct, I think many people just got so determined to leave which allowed them to overcome SI. But anyway it's so awful how many humans just create even more harm and suffering in this world, I wish you the best with your plans.