White Pencil Color
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- May 18, 2024
- 14
Hi
I am in desperate need of help. It feels very ironic as I don't honestly believe there is any help for me. I might be too broken to be fixed.
I am so post and hopeless. I am tired of life. I am terrified. I am so scared all the time. Scared of my future. Scared of being lonely. Scared of never being good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, rich enough, successful enough, kind enough, extraordinary enough, just enough.
I just can't live like this. Everyday is just a burden. People wake up from nightmare, every morning I wake up into one. Every morning my very first thought is that why didn't I just die in my sleep.
I don't really wanna die. I just want the pain to end. I have so many dreams. But I hate that stupid cruel part of me that hopes, that dreams. It's just leading me towards another disappointment.
I can't, I don't want to keep going. It doesn't get any better and it doesn't get any easier.
Been this way since a long while now. The only reason haven't been able to attempt is because I am scared of failing. I have been so much of a failure my entire life but I just can't afford to fail at this.
I am in desperate need of help. It feels very ironic as I don't honestly believe there is any help for me. I might be too broken to be fixed.
I am so post and hopeless. I am tired of life. I am terrified. I am so scared all the time. Scared of my future. Scared of being lonely. Scared of never being good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, rich enough, successful enough, kind enough, extraordinary enough, just enough.
I just can't live like this. Everyday is just a burden. People wake up from nightmare, every morning I wake up into one. Every morning my very first thought is that why didn't I just die in my sleep.
I don't really wanna die. I just want the pain to end. I have so many dreams. But I hate that stupid cruel part of me that hopes, that dreams. It's just leading me towards another disappointment.
I can't, I don't want to keep going. It doesn't get any better and it doesn't get any easier.
Been this way since a long while now. The only reason haven't been able to attempt is because I am scared of failing. I have been so much of a failure my entire life but I just can't afford to fail at this.
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