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wallsclosedin

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Oct 1, 2025
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I have fucked my life up to the point of no return. I have been feeling this way all this year but as of late, I've realized that there is truly no way out. I have contemplated and contemplated and pondered and even tried to comfort myself. It really is not possible anymore. I am also in a really difficult situation rn where I need to be pulling big things off. I cannot do this anymore and I'm desperate. The walls have closed in, my only way out is to put an end to this. And I'm in urgent need of it
 
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9ofHearts

9ofHearts

Awaiting Death
Oct 1, 2025
16
That makes 2 of us. I'm very sorry to hear about your situation.


Fair warning: this website helps to perpetuate negative thoughts, especially if you're already in a spiral. I don't want to give you any cliché sayings, but allow yourself a bit of grace. I hope you find the peace that you're looking for. We'll get there someday.
 
MyShadow

MyShadow

Left the forum to pursue recovery
Aug 27, 2025
475
I have fucked my life up to the point of no return. I have been feeling this way all this year but as of late, I've realized that there is truly no way out. I have contemplated and contemplated and pondered and even tried to comfort myself. It really is not possible anymore. I am also in a really difficult situation rn where I need to be pulling big things off. I cannot do this anymore and I'm desperate. The walls have closed in, my only way out is to put an end to this. And I'm in urgent need of it
It's hard when we have these big expectations of ourselves and then things don't work out as planned. I am in a similar situation. This past year anything that could go wrong went terribly wrong. As a result, I lost pretty much everything. Regardless, I was hoping to hit the ground running.

That did not go as planned as depression and anxiety slammed me hard and derailed any momentum I may have had. I am now trying to pick up the pieces of my life but thoughts of suicide keep creeping in.

For now, I am going to try to keep pushing and I hope you can find the strength to do the same. Let's hope that we can both find peace and the strength to carry on.
 
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