I need advices for my euthanasia request

[Alexandra_]

I wish you luck with your VAD. You can do it!
I dream of that too. I've been looking at their website. Life has always been a nightmare for me. But my mother recently told me that I can only receive my inheritance after she dies. The thought of having to wait another 29 years or so makes me sick (I'm 31 now). All my relatives live too long. My stepfather's father is now 90 years old, and I can't understand why he hasn't died yet.

 

[doneforlife]

So, my biography is almost written. Last step before sending the whole documents in Switzerland. I heard that they may answer very quickly.

If I was the doctor who reads my request, I'd say : "Shit, this was painful and sad to read, idk how this guy is still alive after so much strugglings and traumas. Let's give him access to VAD so this poor guy can finally find peace".

When I go out for 15 minutes once a day (just to buy food or for sending a parcel), I see these normies around me. These people who are busy, working, running, doing things with their families. And I'm here, alone, like a miserable ghost. And I think "They're so lucky, they don't even know what VAD is. They just live". If my VAD is validated, I think I'll just eat more and more junk food. It's the only good thing when you know you'll die soon : you don't need to care about the future anymore.

I don't know how you must be feeling right now. Was life never good to you ? If I have to write my biography, I did have some really good times in life ...but everything is in the past now...will never get back those times...

 

[unluckysadness]

I wish you luck with your VAD. You can do it!
I dream of that too. I've been looking at their website. Life has always been a nightmare for me. But my mother recently told me that I can only receive my inheritance after she dies. The thought of having to wait another 29 years or so makes me sick (I'm 31 now). All my relatives live too long. My stepfather's father is now 90 years old, and I can't understand why he hasn't died yet.

Thank you so much ! To me, VAD (and suicide in general) seems a little bit like the final boss in a videogame. Or when the movie will end soon. "This is it" feeling. And you rewind the movie or the videogame and you see all your struggles and pain, the good and bad things you did, what you couldn't do because your health issues or your bad luck.

I agree, you cannot wait for another 30 years. It's just pure torture. In my family they are quite old too. I hope you'll find peace, in this life or in the afterlife.

I don't know how you must be feeling right now. Was life never good to you ? If I have to write my biography, I did have some really good times in life ...but everything is in the past now...will never get back those times...

It's a very weird feeling. I had some good times when I was 14 and 15. These were the best years. I even had some friends at this time. But when I turned 16, I went mentally ill, then physical issues came and now at 44 I have severe disabilities and it's over. I started to think about suicide when I was 10 and I always knew it would end this way. It may just be karma or something like this.

A lot of people write their biography in a therapeutic way. It could maybe help you ? Unfortunately, it won't change the current situation but at least it's a free method... I hope you'll find something that helps you to cope

 

[RinneOfAragon]

Thank you for updating us

 

[doneforlife]

Thank you so much ! To me, VAD (and suicide in general) seems a little bit like the final boss in a videogame. Or when the movie will end soon. "This is it" feeling. And you rewind the movie or the videogame and you see all your struggles and pain, the good and bad things you did, what you couldn't do because your health issues or your bad luck.

I agree, you cannot wait for another 30 years. It's just pure torture. In my family they are quite old too. I hope you'll find peace, in this life or in the afterlife.

It's a very weird feeling. I had some good times when I was 14 and 15. These were the best years. I even had some friends at this time. But when I turned 16, I went mentally ill, then physical issues came and now at 44 I have severe disabilities and it's over. I started to think about suicide when I was 10 and I always knew it would end this way. It may just be karma or something like this.

A lot of people write their biography in a therapeutic way. It could maybe help you ? Unfortunately, it won't change the current situation but at least it's a free method... I hope you'll find something that helps you to cope

Thankyou! What are the disabilities..(it's ok if you don't want to talk about it). I had a good life but I lost my loved ones. I also think about karma a lot. May be it's true. May be it's our coping mechanism. God knows!. I didn't know that writing biography is therapeutic. For me what's therapeutic is envisioning a future with my loved ones..who have already died..so it's never gonna be true..ever.