I need advices for my euthanasia request

[DeathSweetDeath]

I've been begging my husband to take me to Pegasos since my bridge jump ended up making me disabled (profile pic). He's am not sure I could manage making it to Switzerland from USA on my own. I have a passport and have traveled to Greece once but never wasn't disabled. This is an entirely different situation.

I can't get anyone to listen and I'm looking at SN as an option. I need to read more about it. I don't need to fail again. :(

I'm sorry to hear. That's understandable, it's a lot. There was someone else here who was disabled after a jump. She took SN a few months ago & it seems she was successful. Her story is here…

I jumped 8 stories

I jumped 8 stories and survived. I woke up after a week coma, spent 3 months in hospital/rehab. I have life altering injures and scars. Everyone asks me what happened to me. I'm a walking (barely) failure and my trauma is visible, and will be for the rest of my life! I have lost friends and...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[unluckysadness]

I just got an email from them. It doesn't seem that easy to ctb with them but they seem to take my request seriously (good thing). But they need extra documents - like my biography - and they can't read properly the medical reports I've send to them, so I must buy a computer scanner just for that (they don't take photos converted to PDF... just a detail, it's okay). They talk me about the swiss law too. If I understand well, they can tell me if I'm eligible or not if I send them the right documents.



If I ctb myself without going in Switzerland, at least I got these emails from the organization. So my family can see how much serious I was about it. It was the first goal of my request. Let's wait and see.

 

[Aflame5926]

so do you need a video call before or after you know your egilible or not?

 

[unluckysadness]

so do you need a video call before or after you know your egilible or not?

After.

Sorry for my bad english, I don't want to use automatic translator for these things... Anyway I'll keep SaSu members updated step by step. It may help other people in the future, that's why I'm giving so much details.

 

[unluckysadness]

So, another IMPORTANT update : the woman from the organization just told me that I have good chances to be eligible ! In fact, I've sent the document that says I'm disabled and she think it's like a "game changer" (not exact words because she writes in french). And the fact I don't work since 2021 is another significantly important thing for my request. When I read the email, I got tears in my eyes. A mix of emotion and nervousness. I replied that it means so much to be understood. I didn't talk about SaSu but I wrote that I've known some people who did ctb (people I knew irl) and how much right to die organizations are important. So tonight I think I can say I have 80-85% chances to be eligible. Wow... (mixed feelings emojis)

P.S. : I'm so moved right now, I just cried again. I forgot to say that I DON'T NEED someone from my family who is aware of my plans to assist me. They just need a goodbye letter and THEY will post it to my family after my passing. Sorry if I don't want to share the full email with you but the woman said very interesting things. She will call me in a few days to discuss.

Update : Damn, things are accelerating. The woman still answers to emails after 8PM. She just told me than she is moved by my words. And a lot of requests are rejected directly. She says she only answers to serious requests, so for now I'd say I'm 90% eligible.

 

[_Gollum_]

Je te souhaite bonne chance dans tes démarches <3

 

[unluckysadness]

Je te souhaite bonne chance dans tes démarches <3

Thank you so much I wish you peace too.

 

[Live_Life55]

So, another IMPORTANT update : the woman from the organization just told me that I have good chances to be eligible ! In fact, I've sent the document that says I'm disabled and she think it's like a "game changer" (not exact words because she writes in french). And the fact I don't work since 2021 is another significantly important thing for my request. When I read the email, I got tears in my eyes. A mix of emotion and nervousness. I replied that it means so much to be understood. I didn't talk about SaSu but I wrote that I've known some people who did ctb (people I knew irl) and how much right to die organizations are important. So tonight I think I can say I have 80-85% chances to be eligible. Wow... (mixed feelings emojis)

P.S. : I'm so moved right now, I just cried again. I forgot to say that I DON'T NEED someone from my family who is aware of my plans to assist me. They just need a goodbye letter and THEY will post it to my family after my passing. Sorry if I don't want to share the full email with you but the woman said very interesting things. She will call me in a few days to discuss.

Update : Damn, things are accelerating. The woman still answers to emails after 8PM. She just told me than she is moved by my words. And a lot of requests are rejected directly. She says she only answers to serious requests, so for now I'd say I'm 90% eligible.

Great news! Happy for you. Does it feel surreal now?

Are you able to share what documents they wanted? Did they also ask for physcyatrist approval papers?

90% there is great. Hope you find peace.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Wow, congrats! Thank you so much for sharing with the community . I hope you get what you want .

 

[unluckysadness]

Great news! Happy for you. Does it feel surreal now?

Are you able to share what documents they wanted? Did they also ask for physcyatrist approval papers?

90% there is great. Hope you find peace.

Oh yes it feels really surreal now ! A part of me thinks I must be happy, but the other part thinks "damn, you must be really sick if you're eligible, it's so sad and unfair". But this is how it goes... That's just life. I'll share you details tomorrow because I'm too tired now. I got a lot of emotions today and my body hurts with these fucking spasms.

Wow, congrats! Thank you so much for sharing with the community . I hope you get what you want .

Many thanks ! I'm not 100% eligible but I'd say 90% so let's wait and see. I think I'll have the decision in 2-3 weeks. I need to rest now but I'll keep you updated step by step.

 

[Endstati0n]

Oh yes it feels really surreal now ! A part of me thinks I must be happy, but the other part thinks "damn, you must be really sick if you're eligible, it's so sad and unfair". But this is how it goes... That's just life. I'll share you details tomorrow because I'm too tired now. I got a lot of emotions today and my body hurts with these fucking spasms.

Many thanks ! I'm not 100% eligible but I'd say 90% so let's wait and see. I think I'll have the decision in 2-3 weeks. I need to rest now but I'll keep you updated step by step.

I have an appointment with my psychiatrist to apply for Euthanasia, next week.

Good luck to you brother.

 

[Live_Life55]

I have an appointment with my psychiatrist to apply for Euthanasia, next week.

Good luck to you brother.

Which country are you in?

 

[Endstati0n]

Which country are you in?

Germany

 

[Live_Life55]

Germany

Let me know how difficult the process is. I wonder how liberal Germany is on this subject

 

[tooafraidtodiez]

Oh yes it feels really surreal now ! A part of me thinks I must be happy, but the other part thinks "damn, you must be really sick if you're eligible, it's so sad and unfair". But this is how it goes... That's just life. I'll share you details tomorrow because I'm too tired now. I got a lot of emotions today and my body hurts with these fucking spasms.

Many thanks ! I'm not 100% eligible but I'd say 90% so let's wait and see. I think I'll have the decision in 2-3 weeks. I need to rest now but I'll keep you updated step by step.

If i may ask how do you send the documents, through PDF or image

 

[unluckysadness]

If i may ask how do you send the documents, through PDF or image

They need separate PDF files and only with a computer scanner. I first sent pics with my tablet but it was too blurry and not readable. On their website, you can only send one document. So you'll need to use an online converter that puts together all the documents. But then, you'll need to send other documents (they will explain everything by email).

 

[fadedghost]

They need separate PDF files and only with a computer scanner. I first sent pics with my tablet but it was too blurry and not readable. On their website, you can only send one document. So you'll need to use an online converter that puts together all the documents. But then, you'll need to send other documents (they will explain everything by email).

Despite the Marilyn photo, or perhaps because of it, I've always envisioned you as this sweet soft-spoken effeminate gay male. I didn't know you were French, or wasn't aware of this, until recently. You said you had a terrible medical condition didn't you? It seems so unfair. You are so young to have such a condition. Many hugs for you, if you want them.

 

[unluckysadness]

Despite the Marilyn photo, or perhaps because of it, I've always envisioned you as this sweet soft-spoken effeminate gay male. I didn't know you were French, or wasn't aware of this, until recently. You said you had a terrible medical condition didn't you? It seems so unfair. You are so young to have such a condition. Many hugs for you, if you want them.

I'm not gay at all but it's okay if you think I am In fact I consider myself as asexual. I was effeminate when I was younger. When I was a kid, I wanted to be a girl. Now I just want to be at peace.

And yes, I have some terrible medical conditions, like a lot of people here - and I have a lot of compassion for all of you.

I like this "sad Marilyn" photo because I wanted to choose someone who died by suicide (in fact we're not 100% sure it was a suicide, but whatever). She's not fake on this pic and that's why I like it. As some people think I'm a woman, I wanted to change this profile pic for a male one (Kurt Cobain ??), but I finally decided to keep my sad Marilyn pic because my profile is more easy to identify.

I really appreciate your hugs, many thanks I hope you'll find peace - like everyone here.

 

[korchoi]

Kurt Cobain leaves such a strong impression, and thinking about him tends to bring up feelings of sadness. Having Marilyn Monroe as your profile picture makes you seem like a gentler person—just as you see yourself. Anyway, congratulations on the good news! I'm envious.

 

[fadedghost]

I'm not gay at all but it's okay if you think I am In fact I consider myself as asexual. I was effeminate when I was younger. When I was a kid, I wanted to be a girl. Now I just want to be at peace.

And yes, I have some terrible medical conditions, like a lot of people here - and I have a lot of compassion for all of you.

I like this "sad Marilyn" photo because I wanted to choose someone who died by suicide (in fact we're not 100% sure it was a suicide, but whatever). She's not fake on this pic and that's why I like it. As some people think I'm a woman, I wanted to change this profile pic for a male one (Kurt Cobain ??), but I finally decided to keep my sad Marilyn pic because my profile is more easy to identify.

I really appreciate your hugs, many thanks I hope you'll find peace - like everyone here.

sorry for presuming Marilyn Monroe + male = gay.

oh well, there go my fantasies of messaging you at some point and falling in love over messages and then running away to France and and then we're together and in France, eating french bread, cheese, and the locals all hate me because of my trashy American accent so I'm drunk all day on red wine while trying to read French existential poetry and getting confused and then collapsing outside one of those French cafes from drinking too much... I probably should have checked on your sexual orientation before going down that fantasy rabbit hole...

 

[unluckysadness]

sorry for presuming Marilyn Monroe + male = gay.

oh well, there go my fantasies of messaging you at some point and falling in love over messages and then running away to France and and then we're together and in France, eating french bread, cheese, and the locals all hate me because of my trashy American accent so I'm drunk all day on red wine while trying to read French existential poetry and getting confused and then collapsing outside one of those French cafes from drinking too much... I probably should have checked on your sexual orientation before going down that fantasy rabbit hole...

You don't need to be sorry, that's okay I didn't think about Marilyn = gay icon. All I want now is peace. But I hope you'll find what you're looking for on this earth or in afterlife.

 

[tooafraidtodiez]

You don't need to be sorry, that's okay I didn't think about Marilyn = gay icon. All I want now is peace. But I hope you'll find what you're looking for on this earth or in afterlife.

Hello i tried emailing athanasios before making any application and they didnt reply. Do you get any replies after making the application. Thanks

 

[unluckysadness]

Kurt Cobain leaves such a strong impression, and thinking about him tends to bring up feelings of sadness. Having Marilyn Monroe as your profile picture makes you seem like a gentler person—just as you see yourself. Anyway, congratulations on the good news! I'm envious.

Thanks for your kind words I must wait for the document which says I'm eligible to find some relief. For the moment, nothing is done. I can still have a bad surprise if the doctor says I'm too young or for another reason.

Hello i tried emailing athanasios before making any application and they didnt reply. Do you get any replies after making the application. Thanks

Hi, did you check your spam mailbox ? Or they are maybe on vacation this week ?

 

[tooafraidtodiez]

Thanks for your kind words I must wait for the document which says I'm eligible to find some relief. For the moment, nothing is done. I can still have a bad surprise if the doctor says I'm too young or for another reason.

Hi, did you check your spam mailbox ? Or they are maybe on vacation this week ?

Idk. I checked my spam and there's no reply yet. Maybe i need to make application first

 

[unluckysadness]

Idk. I checked my spam and there's no reply yet. Maybe i need to make application first

Otherwise you can try again in september if you can wait ? They are probably on vacation.

 

[unluckysadness]

I received my birth certificate today. They need it for the VAD process. It was a little bit weird reading this document because I need a birth certificate to get a death certificate. It could be funny if you think about it A meaningless painful and stressful life and a meaningless death.

If heaven exists, I'll tell to angels : Hey, this thing you call "life" was really, but REALLY shitty for me and for billions of people, I ask to be refunded !!

I always said I'll keep my sense of humour until my final days. I just hope to stay in heaven and finally find love and peace.

 

[maggineko]

I received my birth certificate today. They need it for the VAD process. It was a little bit weird reading this document because I need a birth certificate to get a death certificate. It could be funny if you think about it A meaningless painful and stressful life and a meaningless death.

If heaven exists, I'll tell to angels : Hey, this thing you call "life" was really, but REALLY shitty for me and for billions of people, I ask to be refunded !!

I always said I'll keep my sense of humour until my final days. I just hope to stay in heaven and finally find love and peace.

You have an incredibly gentle and wonderful soul, or at least I felt it so while reading your words. If/When you make it to heaven, will you say something nice for me? I'm kidding haha. Anyway, please have a good day or night, and I wish you all the peace and sweetness in the world.

 

[unluckysadness]

You have an incredibly gentle and wonderful soul, or at least I felt it so while reading your words. If/When you make it to heaven, will you say something nice for me? I'm kidding haha. Anyway, please have a good day or night, and I wish you all the peace and sweetness in the world.

Thank you so much for your kind words I'm not that good, but if I can help people on Earth from the other side, I'll do it.
I hope you'll find peace too

 

[unluckysadness]

My documents are ready for the VAD request, except my biography. I've started to write, but damn, it brings me back 35 years ago and I realize how much I've suffered when I was only 10 (and all the rest of my existence) I knew that writing about my past would bring me very bad traumatic flashbacks, but I'm a brave person now. I'll write this shit, send it, and wait. Oh shit, why must I do that ? Being a candidate for death is insane, but it's the only realistic option and I need to do it. Sometimes I must take a deep breath or do something else like watching some shit on TV, because these memories are so rude.

And today was another nightmare with constant pain and these fucking horrible spasms... So, my past was hell, my present time is hell and my future will be hell. I'm the perfect candidate for VAD, sorry but it's true.