I must be incapable of suicide.

[left0vers]

I've come so close to putting an end to this so, so many times. I would be strangling myself during partial and then back out. I would stare at the setup for full and not even step on the chair. I looked down from over 150 feet up after waiting for that chance for so long and I didn't jump. I would fast and take all the necessary meds but never get to the point of drinking the SN itself.

I am a weak coward — on top of everything else — and existing on is my punishment.

 

[iamjustapebble]

me too. i was genuinely so close today but i just couldn't. i think it's because I'm scared of the pain. but i don't know.

 

[3rdworldsadness]

I wish I had weak SI but I have high and I feel the same. I just want to get a chance to free myself from this vile existence.