Venting i miss my friends

[batmanreal]

everyone left me, i want to die. i miss talking about random shit and having people to vent to. i miss listening to my friends talk about their interests, i miss sharing recommendations. i spend every single day just sitting with my own thoughts and grieving my past friendships. everyone just leaves. all the people i have ever cared about just left me in one way or another. what's the point in living if i'm just going to be alone forever. i've predicted it at the beginning of all my friendships, and everyone reassures that they won't leave, but they always do because i'm just not special enough to keep around.

 

[EternalShore]

I'm sorry to hear, batmanreal~ :( I also lost all my irl friends too~ :( and I'm really sorry that it appears that yours have left as well~ >_< it absolutely sucks so much to abandoned and betrayed by them like it~ :/ it's so cruel for them to just leave when they feel that you have outlived your use for them I suppose~ >_<
Feel free to make new friends here while you are here~ :) People here are very friendly, empathetic, and I'm sure they'd be willing to talk to about random stuff and listen to your vents as well~ :) ofc, online friends aren't as great as irl ones, but it's better than being alone forever as you say~ :(

 

[nom nom]

everyone left me, i want to die. i miss talking about random shit and having people to vent to. i miss listening to my friends talk about their interests, i miss sharing recommendations. i spend every single day just sitting with my own thoughts and grieving my past friendships. everyone just leaves. all the people i have ever cared about just left me in one way or another. what's the point in living if i'm just going to be alone forever. i've predicted it at the beginning of all my friendships, and everyone reassures that they won't leave, but they always do because i'm just not special enough to keep around.

im sorry man, ive had friends abandon me too. It suuuucks

 

[westerly_merlin]

everyone left me, i want to die. i miss talking about random shit and having people to vent to. i miss listening to my friends talk about their interests, i miss sharing recommendations. i spend every single day just sitting with my own thoughts and grieving my past friendships. everyone just leaves. all the people i have ever cared about just left me in one way or another. what's the point in living if i'm just going to be alone forever. i've predicted it at the beginning of all my friendships, and everyone reassures that they won't leave, but they always do because i'm just not special enough to keep around.

Sorry to hear that, I have been there too. People here are friendly though.

 

[melonpan]

Yeah, it's really, really lonely, in an almost suffocating away. I'm in my second year of college and I still haven't made any proper connections other than maybe saying hi to my classmates. I'm still clinging onto my friends from high school of which I either forget to reach out to or when I do, they're busy.

Talking online just isn't the same. Well, I hope the both of us can make some this year. It's a terrible feeling to be lonely.

 

[EternalHunger]

Same, no matter how often I've tried online and irl it always ends up the same; it's to the point where I actively distance myself from everyone now because I've always hurt them in some way or another and it starts to fill me with immense guilt, feel like a monster in a lot of ways.

I wish you didn't have to go through the similar issues I've been facing, and I hope you at least find some solace in this community, even if it's built on a normally shunned topic.

There's nothing to be promised on as I can't guarantee the people you'd find even on here could be close or feel any different from your past though I do think there are people who genuinely can cherish you as a friend and see you as important to their lives as you really are, but the general forum is still very welcoming and discuss on regular topics too; if it can bring just the slightest bit of comfort, I hope that can make everything feel just a bit more tolerable.