bl33ding_heart
Borderline
- Jun 24, 2025
- 716
The last person that I felt genuine platonic love towards was this friend that I met 2 years ago. We talked almost everyday for a year and were pretty close. We trusted each other with things we wouldn't trust other people with. I felt genuinely safe and comfortable with this person. They were much older than me, and I viewed them as a father figure. And I'm sure they had some sort of fatherly love towards me as they offered to let me move in with them for free due to my toxic home environment. For a few months we would talk for around 7 hours a day and we really enjoyed each others company. He is genuinely the funniest person I've ever met and no one I've ever met before has been able to make me laugh as much as he does. The both of us were going through our own struggles at the time, and having each other really helped us both through that dark period of our lives. But at some point because of my bpd I ended up splitting on him and saying some really mean things, and after that he didn't wanna talk to me anymore and just labelled me as a sociopath. Despite knowing I have bpd and knowing how I can get, because I would share my rough patches with him. And he was also friends with my bf at the time who would vent to him about me and try to get advice on how to manage our relationship. I know I was mean and cruel but I felt betrayed, and I still do. It's completely his decision if he doesn't wanna have contact with me anymore. Most don't after learning how I can act during the peak of my emotions. But I just don't like being labelled as something I'm not, and viewed as evil all because of the symptoms of my disorder that I can't control. It's unfair, and I am still a person beyond this disorder.
