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I hope death is nice to me
Jul 13, 2025
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It's worse than I think, I could be dismissed next year. My GPA was 3.1, but I'm failing a class, and I could be dismissed because my gpa would be below a 2.0.
My family will kill me, this isn't what they worked for.
Oh my god I'm a failure. I can't stop crying because I really know I can't recover from this. This is a nightmare.

I've been hyperventilating, sobbing, I tried and I'm going to fail out college because I'm fucking stupid, I don't know what to say to my father and mother, they're going to scream at me while my brother is in college and I'm not. I may not even be overreacting this time.
Should I just jump now? I have debt I can't pay off without a proper job and no one has hired me for even part-time work, what do I do? I don't know what to do, this was my whole life and I literally cannot do anything else.
I already sent an email to my advisor but she likely wont be able to help much if I'm right about all this. All I can do is hope I can drop my worst class and try harder.
I'm going to lose all I have left, I will never succeed after this and that's final. I have no friends, no love life, and now I might be out of college and unemployed. I'm going to be stuck at home with disappointed and angry parents that would never let this go. I can't bear to hear them angry over this, it wrecks me inside.
My heart has never been so shattered. I don't care what happens to me anymore if I lose college.

I hope I'm wrong. I don't think I wanted to end things like this.
I don't want to be yelled at again, my parents will hate me so much, I haven't cried for so long.
I tried breaking the window of my dorm because I want to jump. I don't care anymore.
 
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