I met a cat the other day

[puppet_nihilist]

This can sound absurd to many people in general, not too absurd though I hope, but I have never touched a cat in my entire life up and till a day ago. I've seen them, street cats fighting usually or just running around next to a bin/trash box. But I've never touched one before.

I went out for a walk and a cat followed me. I was slightly scared at first, I sat at a bench in a park I go to every now and then when I'm free and the cat kept approaching me. Once it got close enough and just literally stood there next to my leg I started petting it and oh my god that was just so sweet. I also touched it's ears and they moved, I literally melted on the spot. It made me feel an unrealistic amount of joy. The cat was just really cute. I feel like I've missed out so much, I wish I knew how petting a cat felt like before. Anyhow, I don't know what to make of this. Being depressed, self loathing, and suicidal most of the time made me feel very weird about this experience. Is this normal? I don't deserve to feel something nice like this it made me feel conflicted, that cat is unlucky for meeting a cursed person like me.

I had a bit of fun but after some time I walked back to my home, I was just taking a break since my shit university is barraging us with assignments and shit even though the semester is literally about to end. The cat followed me for a bit but it stopped near a house along the road. I waved a small goodbye at it lol, not sure if it understood.

Anyhow, considering I'm really suicidal, and I'm highly likely to commit suicide as soon as I get out of where I am to buy SN (however and whenever that's possible in my shit circumstances) is it okay to get a pet cat? I already know the answer, I just felt like it was too painful to accept, just venting about it. I shouldn't get one, leaving it like that someday suddenly would be bad for it. I just want a pet cat after that experience, I can't tolerate the loneliness I'm already in. I don't know if I even deserve one, they're so lovely. Why is everything in life so shit and miserable, even after a tiny glimpse into something so nice I immediately recognize all the mess and horrible shit that'll happen afterwards. Why is everything in life so unbelievably wrong. Everything is wrong. There's not one thing that even resembles salvation in this shit life. Well at least it's not eternal, but damn getting out of it is really hard.

 

[ItsMe-Hecked]

If you plan to stick around for a bit, you could adopt an elderly cat. They need love as well!

 

[ThriveOrDie]

This can sound absurd to many people in general, not too absurd though I hope, but I have never touched a cat in my entire life up and till a day ago. I've seen them, street cats fighting usually or just running around next to a bin/trash box. But I've never touched one before.

I went out for a walk and a cat followed me. I was slightly scared at first, I sat at a bench in a park I go to every now and then when I'm free and the cat kept approaching me. Once it got close enough and just literally stood there next to my leg I started petting it and oh my god that was just so sweet. I also touched it's ears and they moved, I literally melted on the spot. It made me feel an unrealistic amount of joy. The cat was just really cute. I feel like I've missed out so much, I wish I knew how petting a cat felt like before. Anyhow, I don't know what to make of this. Being depressed, self loathing, and suicidal most of the time made me feel very weird about this experience. Is this normal? I don't deserve to feel something nice like this it made me feel conflicted, that cat is unlucky for meeting a cursed person like me.

I had a bit of fun but after some time I walked back to my home, I was just taking a break since my shit university is barraging us with assignments and shit even though the semester is literally about to end. The cat followed me for a bit but it stopped near a house along the road. I waved a small goodbye at it lol, not sure if it understood.

Anyhow, considering I'm really suicidal, and I'm highly likely to commit suicide as soon as I get out of where I am to buy SN (however and whenever that's possible in my shit circumstances) is it okay to get a pet cat? I already know the answer, I just felt like it was too painful to accept, just venting about it. I shouldn't get one, leaving it like that someday suddenly would be bad for it. I just want a pet cat after that experience, I can't tolerate the loneliness I'm already in. I don't know if I even deserve one, they're so lovely. Why is everything in life so shit and miserable, even after a tiny glimpse into something so nice I immediately recognize all the mess and horrible shit that'll happen afterwards. Why is everything in life so unbelievably wrong. Everything is wrong. There's not one thing that even resembles salvation in this shit life. Well at least it's not eternal, but damn getting out of it is really hard.

Cats bring me a lot of joy. Kittens are even more exciting. Raising a litter of kittens is the most fun you could ever have. The only joy I have felt this year was when I was with my cats. They are so curious, crazy and cuddly. I just adore them so much.

Some shelters need volunteers to just interact and play with the animals or they have foster programs where they have you take a cat home temporarily until they can find a permanent home. They usually provide food and supplies. Also cat cafes are getting popular worldwide. You may have one in your area. Some have cats roaming free around the cafe and some have them in separate area where you pay extra to hang out with them. Also, IDK if pet sitting apps are big where you are but they are big in the US. People will pay you to take care of their animals when they are away and you can say you only want to take care of cats.

 

[BeautifulMosaics]

I'm so glad you got to experience the joy that petting a cat is. You could try cat sitting. People who have gone away open their homes to people to look after their cats - you can set your own prices too so you can be cheaper than the competition. It's an alternative to Cat Cafe's where you have to spend money and may not even be able to touch the cats.

I'm sorry you're suffering also, congrats on being in uni despite suffering so much - it requires strength. (That's not to say that anyone who takes time out for their mental heath doesn't have strength either - deviating from what everyone else is doing also requires strength and it's wise to take care of yourself.)

 

[puppet_nihilist]

Cats bring me a lot of joy. Kittens are even more exciting. Raising a litter of kittens is the most fun you could ever have. The only joy I have felt this year was when I was with my cats. They are so curious, crazy and cuddly. I just adore them so much.

Some shelters need volunteers to just interact and play with the animals or they have foster programs where they have you take a cat home temporarily until they can find a permanent home. They usually provide food and supplies. Also cat cafes are getting popular worldwide. You may have one in your area. Some have cats roaming free around the cafe and some have them in separate area where you pay extra to hang out with them. Also, IDK if pet sitting apps are big where you are but they are big in the US. People will pay you to take care of their animals when they are away and you can say you only want to take care of cats.

Wow I've never heard of those cat facilities before. I think there's little to no stuff like that here since it doesn't look like the type of country to have things like that I'll search either way. Thanks for informing me though. I hope they at least have shelters or adoption shelters.

I'm so glad you got to experience the joy that petting a cat is. You could try cat sitting. People who have gone away open their homes to people to look after their cats - you can set your own prices too so you can be cheaper than the competition. It's an alternative to Cat Cafe's where you have to spend money and may not even be able to touch the cats.

I'm sorry you're suffering also, congrats on being in uni despite suffering so much - it requires strength. (That's not to say that anyone who takes time out for their mental heath doesn't have strength either - deviating from what everyone else is doing also requires strength and it's wise to take care of yourself.)

I wish I could be proud of that but I'm able to still be in university just out of shear luck. I'm not sure when my luck will run out though, I hope I can make till my graduation but I have a lot of doubts. Thanks for encouragement.

 

[catdaddy2601]

Honestly, cats are amazing. My two fur babies have kept me going, they are probably the only reasons I'm still here... If you suffer from depression, I highly recommend getting a cat as they really help. You also learn a lot from a cat, especially about boundaries/personal space because trust me, unlike a dog, a cat will gladly tell you when enough is enough

As another member here recommend, there are lots of senior cats who are often overlooked but have so much love to give so definitely consider a senior cat aswell. If you need any more cat daddy advice please inbox me

 

[Conker]

You know you want to, so adopt an old cat. preferably a fat one

 

[FuneralCry]

I like cats a lot, animals are certainly better than humans. Having a pet can be one of the only good things about being alive, this life is very depressing. I can relate to everything always being wrong, more than anything I wish I was never born. I wish you the best.

 

[grungeCat]

It's such a pleasant feeling when a cat approaches you and acts friendly, isn't it? I adore these little warm purring balls of fur. Even looking at a cat makes me feel better whenever I feel down. Cats are my favorite pets, I love to look after them. They certainly make me less suicidal. Maybe owning an older cat will make your life a little bit brighter?

 

[Jude]

I'm sorry you're feeling lonely and feel like you don't deserve a pet (you do!). Having a cat approaching you might be a good omen (it's the year of the tiger!) and things might get better when you have a cat who keeps you company:)

 

[Pluto]