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theblueveil

theblueveil

Rock bottom; still I keep falling.
Jul 15, 2024
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Hello all. I have no where else to share this, so I thought I would share it hear. I have made a promise to someone I love dearly that I will never kill myself, and I am going to try my very hardest never to let her down. Recently, my friend lost someone to suicide, and another one of her friends attempted. She knows about my suicidal tendencies, and she was drunk and texting me. "Please don't go anywhere." It hurts so bad, every day in a way I can't put into words. But whenever it crosses my mind, now I think of her too. I love her so much, but I'll never tell her. She doesn't deserve any more people letting her down, including me. I'm going to try. Everyday I'm going to try for her.

Thanks for reading.
 
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Redacted24

Might be Richard Cory... or not
Nov 20, 2023
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It's really hard to hurt and bear through it to spare another the devastation your loss would bring, isn't it?

Your care and courage to face the daily urges to leave, to stare those down and keep going is tremendous. It's admirable. Keep reminding yourself that you're kind and compassionate.

We'll be here, sending support and encouragement to you when you're at those lows.

Keep being strong. Keep caring. :heart:
In this together!
 
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