I love you

[Iloveyouall]

I found this forum by looking for suicide memes because they are the ones that makes me laugh the most, I've been through all the pages and it made me smile a lot, even laughed for some. I learned a lot too as I didn't know what CTB or SN meant before. Then I went through other threads and damn that was powerfull and facinating, I was in a mix between crying and smiling as I was reading. I'm still trully shocked about how much active this forum is, about how much pain you people are going through, about how much you care for eachother and how much open minded you all seems to be.

There is so much love in this place, so much life, so much will to live compared to most IRL interactions that I or other people seems to have. Most of you guys may be suicidal, but I trully feel your will to live something real instead of this nightmare of falsity that we're all doomed to survive in, on this little rock floating into the vast emptiness of space. It may sound paradoxical but suicide is the strongest way to say "I want to live".

I love you people, no matter who you are, I love you. I feel so sad about all the suffering, all the bad stuff that happened or is happening to you. You guys are brave, probably ones of the strongest beings I've witnessed, no matter if you chose or will choose to CTB or not. You are awesome and I love you.

I wish I could help but I don't want to promise stuff that I won't be able to insure or be good at and I feel I will prolly just end to be a failure to everyone. Feel free to message me anyway if you feel the need to talk and you're not scared of me being a failure to you.
I love you all.

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

Welcome.

You don't need to worry about what you bring to us. We are a big, crazy group that provides for everyone. Some days you give, some days you get, some days you NEED. And it's always okay.

 

[HorribleFeelings1]

Welcome.

You don't need to worry about what you bring to us. We are a big, crazy group that provides for everyone. Some days you give, some days you get, some days you NEED. And it's always okay.

Amen

I found this forum by looking for suicide memes because they are the ones that makes me laugh the most, I've been through all the pages and it made me smile a lot, even laughed for some. I learned a lot too as I didn't know what CTB or SN meant before. Then I went through other threads and damn that was powerfull and facinating, I was in a mix between crying and smiling as I was reading. I'm still trully shocked about how much active this forum is, about how much pain you people are going through, about how much you care for eachother and how much open minded you all seems to be.

There is so much love in this place, so much life, so much will to live compared to most IRL interactions that I or other people seems to have. Most of you guys may be suicidal, but I trully feel your will to live something real instead of this nightmare of falsity that we're all doomed to survive in, on this little rock floating into the vast emptiness of space. It may sound paradoxical but suicide is the strongest way to say "I want to live".

I love you people, no matter who you are, I love you. I feel so sad about all the suffering, all the bad stuff that happened or is happening to you. You guys are brave, probably ones of the strongest beings I've witnessed, no matter if you chose or will choose to CTB or not. You are awesome and I love you.

I wish I could help but I don't want to promise stuff that I won't be able to insure or be good at and I feel I will prolly just end to be a failure to everyone. Feel free to message me anyway if you feel the need to talk and you're not scared of me being a failure to you.
I love you all.

And welcome! Stick around, talk to us (: my PMs are always open (once you are able to send messages) I'm glad this place brings you joy though. Its very very rare to find a place to be about to say literally anything. Youll get support and love from us so don't hesitate. And we love you too!

 

[Iloveyouall]

Its very very rare to find a place to be about to say literally anything.

Yup, it's odd how we humans now seems to be so tough and hard on the outside, but our tears keep oozing from that block of concrete, no matter how hard we try to hide it, saying it's just the rain.

 

[Jean4]

That was one of the nicest messages I have seen. Thank you for that. I am in a re-evaluation phase and really needed to hear that.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Interesting and kind post. I agree suicide for some is paradoxical, perhaps a kind of guarantee of the survival of the self, or perhaps more accurately, protection against its annihilation.

Curious as to why you've joined the community. I ask because you say "you" rather than "we," so if you do not actively seek ctb, are you drawn to join to be in the company of our admittedly fabulous personalities, charm and wit, or perhaps is there another benefit we offer? I admit it's difficult for me to imagine seeking good company in darkness, which to someone finding benefit in life, this environment could seem to be. For members, it seems like SS is a light in darkness, perhaps for you as well? Of course no expectations of you to respond. My ponderings do not demand you to address them. :)

In what ways would you want or be able to help someone, should they seek to accept your kind invitation?

 

[Iloveyouall]

That was one of the nicest messages I have seen. Thank you for that. I am in a re-evaluation phase and really needed to hear that.

You're welcome. I'm glad it helped you in some way.

 

[porfin1234]

Super sweet. Love to you too, my fellow human

 

[r2d2020]

Welcome Iloveyouall

Every corpse on mount Everest was once an extremely motivated person.

That made me laugh, thanks :)

 

[Lostandfound7]

Awwww that's was so incredibly sweet!!
Welcome to the fam, Love!
We're like that crazy family in the neighborhood with the house full of misfits, that "norm ppl r afraid to visit!! Lol
I'm fairly new too but love everyone here so much!
We may argue,curse, n fight each other , but don't mess with us..lol
Love u toooooo!!

 

[Iloveyouall]

Interesting and kind post. I agree suicide for some is paradoxical, perhaps a kind of guarantee of the survival of the self, or perhaps more accurately, protection against its annihilation.

Curious as to why you've joined the community. I ask because you say "you" rather than "we," so if you do not actively seek ctb, are you drawn to join to be in the company of our admittedly fabulous personalities, charm and wit, or perhaps is there another benefit we offer? I admit it's difficult for me to imagine seeking good company in darkness, which to someone finding benefit in life, this environment could seem to be. For members, it seems like SS is a light in darkness, perhaps for you as well? Of course no expectations of you to respond. My ponderings do not demand you to address them. :)

In what ways would you want or be able to help someone, should they seek to accept your kind invitation?

Well, I don't consider myself suicidal even if it's been a long time that I don't see a point in existence. It's more like I don't understand how and why most people seems to enjoy life that much. I used to ask my friends and family "Why are you so eager to live that masquerade? What is the purpose of this show ?" and I never got a "sufficient" answer, either they seemed kinda delusional to me by answering preconceptions, either they'd just not say anything, being like shocked and not being able to process the question and never talked about it again. Finally I just gave up asking, feeling that I was just ruining the atmosphere as they seemed to me that they just gave up on life or just simply questioning it, like they don't care about it. So for years I wandered here and there, seeking for deeper interactions and never got to meet people who were actually seeing life as I felt it was: a not so pleasant thing that should be questioned. Maybe that's why I'm here, because you guys don't seem delusional, you seem to care.

About the darkness, I feel that it's in the deepest darkness that shine the brightest light. It's like the world is inverted everytime, everywhere. I'm not sure how to explain it.

About the help, I don't know what I actually can do besides listening, talking to those who feel alone, give some advises even if I'm not sure if mines would be good. Maybe it's actually me that need help, maybe I'm the one who feel alone. As I said, I don't want to fail people and I don't know how much I can handle.

I hope it answers your questions even if I admit some of it could sound a little vague.

We're like that crazy family in the neighborhood with the house full of misfits, that "norm ppl r afraid to visit!! Lol

I like that image x)

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

@Iloveyouall

That was such a beautiful and thoughtful response. Thank you.

Your first paragraph resonated, especially finding people with whom to have deep and meaningful interactions, if not free of delusions/illusions, then fighting them in a reciprocal and mutually supportive way.

I like that part about the brightest lights in the deepest darkness. I sometimes struggle with the darkness having an impact to dim my light. Some days I am not my best because of it, but my light always seeks to find ways to get bright again, the adaptability and resilience humans are both blessed with and continually challenged by.

The third paragraph reflects to me how we are social animals, we need one another's help, and helping others is beneficial to us as well. I find that for me it is helpful to recognize I am at the limit of what I can handle to maintain healthy boundaries first with myself, then with others. I read in Boundaries, in fact, that they are not walls but gates that determine what stays out and what is let in. Some days I am all about the wall, though!

Very glad you're here. I hope you have a positive experience on SS and find all you seek.

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

Welcome and love you too!!!

 

[Iloveyouall]

Thank you all for your welcoming messages.

I read in Boundaries, in fact, that they are not walls but gates that determine what stays out and what is let in.

It makes me think of a quote a metal dude said in an interview, it was like "let's not consider it as boundaries or borders but more like frontiers that are waiting to be explored". But I feel what you mean, sometimes the wall is thick and needs to be.

I'm glad to be here too my friend.

 

[Sour]

I love you

 

[enjoy]

appreciated this. thanks for joining us, even if your stay is brief! i love you too.

 

[Despondent]

Welcome friend and newbie family member!! I love you as well! ❤ If you ever need someone to talk to or rant to, I'm here :)

 

[rntmss]

I've only been here for a few days but I can already feel the compassion between users. This is a nice place even though the subject matter can be dark.

 

[Iloveyouall]

Welcome friend and newbie family member!! I love you as well! ❤ If you ever need someone to talk to or rant to, I'm here :)

Thanks friend, if you need someone I'm here too.

I love you

I love you too.

I've only been here for a few days but I can already feel the compassion between users. This is a nice place even though the subject matter can be dark.

It seems that we're all bright lights in the dark.

appreciated this. thanks for joining us, even if your stay is brief! i love you too.

You're welcome, thank you for welcoming me.

 

[APharmaDestroyedLife]

I found this forum by looking for suicide memes because they are the ones that makes me laugh the most, I've been through all the pages and it made me smile a lot, even laughed for some. I learned a lot too as I didn't know what CTB or SN meant before. Then I went through other threads and damn that was powerfull and facinating, I was in a mix between crying and smiling as I was reading. I'm still trully shocked about how much active this forum is, about how much pain you people are going through, about how much you care for eachother and how much open minded you all seems to be.

There is so much love in this place, so much life, so much will to live compared to most IRL interactions that I or other people seems to have. Most of you guys may be suicidal, but I trully feel your will to live something real instead of this nightmare of falsity that we're all doomed to survive in, on this little rock floating into the vast emptiness of space. It may sound paradoxical but suicide is the strongest way to say "I want to live".

I love you people, no matter who you are, I love you. I feel so sad about all the suffering, all the bad stuff that happened or is happening to you. You guys are brave, probably ones of the strongest beings I've witnessed, no matter if you chose or will choose to CTB or not. You are awesome and I love you.

I wish I could help but I don't want to promise stuff that I won't be able to insure or be good at and I feel I will prolly just end to be a failure to everyone. Feel free to message me anyway if you feel the need to talk and you're not scared of me being a failure to you.
I love you all.

If the world had more people like you in it, I bet a lot of people would not even be here... thank you for your most kind and welcome words.

 

[Iloveyouall]

If the world had more people like you in it, I bet a lot of people would not even be here... thank you for your most kind and welcome words.

Thank you for that compliment. I wish you the best.

Welcome.

You don't need to worry about what you bring to us. We are a big, crazy group that provides for everyone. Some days you give, some days you get, some days you NEED. And it's always okay.

You guys seem way less crazy to me than most people I know IRL.

Welcome Iloveyouall



That made me laugh, thanks :)

You're welcome :)

 

[Isittimetogonola]

I found this forum by looking for suicide memes because they are the ones that makes me laugh the most, I've been through all the pages and it made me smile a lot, even laughed for some. I learned a lot too as I didn't know what CTB or SN meant before. Then I went through other threads and damn that was powerfull and facinating, I was in a mix between crying and smiling as I was reading. I'm still trully shocked about how much active this forum is, about how much pain you people are going through, about how much you care for eachother and how much open minded you all seems to be.

There is so much love in this place, so much life, so much will to live compared to most IRL interactions that I or other people seems to have. Most of you guys may be suicidal, but I trully feel your will to live something real instead of this nightmare of falsity that we're all doomed to survive in, on this little rock floating into the vast emptiness of space. It may sound paradoxical but suicide is the strongest way to say "I want to live".

I love you people, no matter who you are, I love you. I feel so sad about all the suffering, all the bad stuff that happened or is happening to you. You guys are brave, probably ones of the strongest beings I've witnessed, no matter if you chose or will choose to CTB or not. You are awesome and I love you.

I wish I could help but I don't want to promise stuff that I won't be able to insure or be good at and I feel I will prolly just end to be a failure to everyone. Feel free to message me anyway if you feel the need to talk and you're not scared of me being a failure to you.
I love you all.

The fact that you are here has helped me. Sometimes all we can do is listen which, these days, is a very special gift. Just knowing someone is there can do wonders. Thank you for finding your way here. I really look forward to your insights. And..I love you too❤

 

[Jean4]

Coming back to this. I needed to hear it. Thank you hand holder.

 

[bpdandme]

Welcome!!

 

[LastRide]

Welcome to everyone new and to all of those who are still here ! Let me just say this, plus of course from all the useful exchanges on methods for your future ctb, I've rarely experienced such overwhelming, sincere support as in this SS forum....not even by people who are supposed to be your friends, let alone by strangers !

 

[K-O]

WORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!