Venting I look fucking disgusting

[AsexualBarbieBoy]

I'm 156cm. Enough said.

 

[not_a_robot]

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There is nothing left of me, my personality, nothing valuable or worthy. There was a splitting of the personality, the destruction of the personality. This happens as a result of physical damage to the brain or when the suffering was too strong, as the psychiatrist said in my case suffering were stronger than my brain could withstand and my personality died, now that it is some kind of shard of "me". But I never planned to have any relationship anyway.


I am an antinatalist too. Unfortunately, the only way to make it possible is to create some kind of infertility virus. Most people don't even want to think about it, they are like animals.

Your personality seems fine to me.
But, shrinks don't like me much either.

 

[Bärchen]

Same here, a ugly bag full of shit.

 

[Cevapcici]

You sumed the torment a lot of us have to go through. I cry almost every morning when I look in the mirror to put my hair in a bun. It hurts to know you'll always be limited by the perceived genetic fitness of your body.

I think ugly people should have a defense league as a visible minority or something, we should have our own black lives matters to defend our right to decent treatment by this society !

 

[Mljonzy]

Me too almost 30 never had any type of relationship and get laughed at but i don't think people will be laughing at me when they are dead.

 

[Jolene40]

I know it's shit to be young and feel ugly. I'm 40 and it honestly gets better for most people as they get older. I look like an old scraggy hag. I'm not attractive physically anymore but you know I 100% don't care. I feel like I am a good person. Through suffering you become a better more appealing person to me in my eyes. I think others can feel this way too and we all know suffering on here.
Feeling wretched with depression will make most people feel like a plug.

 

[throwaway123]

I'd go as far and say looks are one of the most important things in life if not the most important.
Unfourtnately I don't even look normal. I am a ugly piece of shit. All I ever wanted was to be normal. To look normal so that I may have a fair opportunity in life.
Ultimately it's the nature of this world. We can't change it. There are winners and there must be losers like me. Sad but true. I'm glad when it ends. I would never be able to live in a world like this.

 

[magick'sgone]

I feel you, throwaway. To be able to go to the shop without people second glancing me. To not have to be exceptional in every social interaction in order to be valued. To be able to even mess around with dating sites. To not feel utterly disposable to other humans.

Believe it or not, humans don't need to be beautiful to be desirable. So many other factors come into play. we do however need a base level of normality in our appearance. The combination of too many negatives can ruin a person's chances in life. A Base level physically attractive person can suffer injury (facial fractures, scars, loss of an eye etc etc) and still be more attractive than someone who has (socially considered) lesser afflictions (dark eyes, sickly looking complexion, bad teeth etc etc). Some things are instinctively assumed to be indicators of genetic weakness, when they are in fact the result of environmental factors present during development.

This is why it makes no sense when people try to make you feel better\ungrateful by saying shit like "how can you complain about your disproportionately big nose and weak chin, when you know Dave had that accident with the chainsaw last year? How do you think Dave feels???", well fuck, I don't know, probably like a handsome bastard with a bad ass facial scar? Often a combination of lesser afflictions can be worse than a single, more noticable one. Fuck, i've digressed and rambled and don't even know my own conclusion.

 

[Alan James]

All I ever wanted was to be normal. To look normal so that I may have a fair opportunity in life.

Any healthy normal body of normal height and weight, any race and gender would suit me. I don't want to be beautiful - I just need a standard healthy body, like a standard drone. Do I really want so much?

But I even learned to endure my external and internal deformity and worthlessness, but this body hurts and causes depersonalization, hard for me even to sit at the computer and play video games (which is my only hobby).

 

[Jolene40]

I'd go as far and say looks are one of the most important things in life if not the most important.
Unfourtnately I don't even look normal. I am a ugly piece of shit. All I ever wanted was to be normal. To look normal so that I may have a fair opportunity in life.
Ultimately it's the nature of this world. We can't change it. There are winners and there must be losers like me. Sad but true. I'm glad when it ends. I would never be able to live in a world like this.

You have got to be relatively young? I have seen some beastly looking people with such confidence and always with a partner it dispels this theory completely. When you are younger it does seem to matter more I agree. The cheese line there is someone for everyone is so true. I've seen it with my own eyes. The depression stops you building on all those other attributes that make up for being less attractive which is crap really

 

[throwaway123]

You have got to be relatively young? I have seen some beastly looking people with such confidence and always with a partner it dispels this theory completely. When you are younger it does seem to matter more I agree. The cheese line there is someone for everyone is so true. I've seen it with my own eyes. The depression stops you building on all those other attributes that make up for being less attractive which is crap really

I am ugly. If I can't love myself how can I expect others to love me? Most if not all people see me as disgusting and ugly and they are not wrong to be honest. I don't even care about looking actracctive. I just want to look normal.
I'm sure it matters less with age but still.

Like Alan James said:

Any healthy normal body of normal height and weight, any race and gender would suit me. I don't want to be beautiful - I just need a standard healthy body, like a standard drone. Do I really want so much?

But I even learned to endure my external and internal deformity and worthlessness, but this body hurts and causes depersonalization, hard for me even to sit at the computer and play video games (which is my only hobby).

If I was physically and mentally healthy I wouldn't be here. I would be happy with being normal but I am simply not and it is not going to change. :(

That makes me very sad and gives me anxiety for the future and my eventual death.

 

[TimeToDie]

I'm 156cm. Enough said.

5' 1.5" I had to convert since I'm in the USA where we have the inalienable right to not use metric. Yup, that is indeed short for a man. It's short for a lady too, but height really isn't deemed that important for women unless they are a supermodel. My height is OK, but I'm fat & bald and things get even worse if I take my clothes off, so looks are on my laundry list of reasons to die, though they are just one of many items.

Edit: not to mention that your body goes down hill by the time you're middle-aged.

 

[not_a_robot]

I have severe scoliosis, so bad that when I was twelve, doctors told me if I didn't immediately get surgery for it, I would be in a wheelchair and unable to walk by 18. It did not help that I always hunched myself to try to minimize my ridiculous huge breasts (i developed really early, I had boobs in third grade, NOT COOL.)
Well they exaggerated, I can walk, people just think I look really slouchy and weird.
I know you all think you are suffering from lack of dating and sex, but consider:
I have always been overwhelmed with sexual attention from men but it has never once been kind or genuine. My creepy posture makes them think I must have low self esteem, that I should be grateful for the attention. It is not a compliment when men want to fuck me, it is an insult. They are just using me for a hate-fuck to boost their own self esteem. I only got my self esteem back by making the shitbags pay me for it. The money spends the same, whether the tricks love me or hate me. That always made me feel better.

Anyway, I see so many people complaining that lack of sex opportunity is the reason they are miserable. Well, when all of your bullies want to hatefuck you, that's not exactly a picnic either.

 

[Mort]

pls let me touch your heart.....

This song makes me cry

 

[Jolene40]

I noticed with myself and my brother that when we look at our reflections our faces are quite wonky. Same in photos. But when I look at my brothers face not through a reflection or

I'd go as far and say looks are one of the most important things in life if not the most important.
Unfourtnately I don't even look normal. I am a ugly piece of shit. All I ever wanted was to be normal. To look normal so that I may have a fair opportunity in life.
Ultimately it's the nature of this world. We can't change it. There are winners and there must be losers like me. Sad but true. I'm glad when it ends. I would never be able to live in a world like this.

I don't agree with you. I know that feeling this way is horrid and does have a profound effect. You can look amazing and life will in many ways be easier but it does not guarantee a good life at all. Look at Marilyn Monroe, beautiful beyond measure but no one truly wanted her. It all depends what you have to offer. Every relationship is a mutual exchange if we care to admit that or not. And if you're down and depressed as hell you have nothing to give. If you look great I guess you can still get people flocking round you despite all this. Not fair really. It still isn't enough though.

 

[BACONF]

I´been feeling like that for two months now. Can't stand the fact people are hypocrites with me and my appearance. They should be the ones suffering....