
☆AwaitingEntropy☆
Snuffing the Light Out
- Nov 6, 2021
- 208
And yet, I feel alone. It's so hard, for one, to tell if people are being genuine about them, or if they are venting and using it as an analogy.
Either way I try to be kind, to tell them I understand, but the topic of even thinking about suicide is so taboo, no one wants to elaborate on their feelings, and I doubt they understand how serious I am when I say I get it, and I'm here for them.
I know there's not much I can do to help, but I just don't want them to feel alone. These ctb feelings, whatever their sources or circumstances stem from, are so very isolating. It's difficult knowing that so many of my friends and family are likely going through this same loneliness.
It makes it more difficult, because I've basically decided I'm going to ctb someday, even if I don't know when. And yet, I can't talk about it with anyone either. (And if I'm being honest, it's a little painful that no one asks, but I am quite used to it.) That's why here is such a blessing, it's nice to talk openly with people who understand.
Either way I try to be kind, to tell them I understand, but the topic of even thinking about suicide is so taboo, no one wants to elaborate on their feelings, and I doubt they understand how serious I am when I say I get it, and I'm here for them.
I know there's not much I can do to help, but I just don't want them to feel alone. These ctb feelings, whatever their sources or circumstances stem from, are so very isolating. It's difficult knowing that so many of my friends and family are likely going through this same loneliness.
It makes it more difficult, because I've basically decided I'm going to ctb someday, even if I don't know when. And yet, I can't talk about it with anyone either. (And if I'm being honest, it's a little painful that no one asks, but I am quite used to it.) That's why here is such a blessing, it's nice to talk openly with people who understand.