I kinda need help

[jawdropped123]

On wednesday i had a bad experience with a psychologist. I got home i called my doctor asked him for some benzos and went to the pharmacist than i went to the store bought a long rope (it was as thick as a jumping rope) I got home. I tied the rope really tied around my neck. Than i pass the rest of the rope around my neck like 5 times. I holded the rest of the rope tightly at the left side of my neck (for maybe 20-30 minutes) I didnt feel any pain but after i start to feel kinda dizzy and i gave up and took the rope off my neck. I remember i needed to use the toilet so bad but i didnt have much energy to move so i fell asleep. I just woke uo the next day. No pain or anything. Around 3 pm i felt numbness on my neck and it went down to my chest. I spent all night awake cause i thought i was going to die but now i kinda feel better. Was i overreacting? Should i have seeked medical attention at that point? Could this have ended bad? Is it possible that something happen to me even tho days went by ?

 

[Roseate]

Try to seek medical attention. It sounds very serious. Maybe there is some sort of damage to your neck. It could still end badly. I would seek medical attention but if you're worried about being put in a psychiatric hospital, just be subtle.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

" Must have hit a nerve" when you tried hanging with the rope … I hope you do feel better soon.

 

[jawdropped123]

" Must have hit a nerve" when you tried hanging with the rope … I hope you do feel better soon.

I didnt try hanging tho i was laying down

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

I didnt try hanging tho i was laying down

I understand, all the best to you

 

[Vizzy]

On wednesday i had a bad experience with a psychologist. I got home i called my doctor asked him for some benzos and went to the pharmacist than i went to the store bought a long rope (it was as thick as a jumping rope) I got home. I tied the rope really tied around my neck. Than i pass the rest of the rope around my neck like 5 times. I holded the rest of the rope tightly at the left side of my neck (for maybe 20-30 minutes) I didnt feel any pain but after i start to feel kinda dizzy and i gave up and took the rope off my neck. I remember i needed to use the toilet so bad but i didnt have much energy to move so i fell asleep. I just woke uo the next day. No pain or anything. Around 3 pm i felt numbness on my neck and it went down to my chest. I spent all night awake cause i thought i was going to die but now i kinda feel better. Was i overreacting? Should i have seeked medical attention at that point? Could this have ended bad? Is it possible that something happen to me even tho days went by ?

You are fine for now because if something really bad happens to your neck you will be uncomfortable and breathing will be hard but monitor your neck for few more days and see how it goes

In future don't do half baked attempts if you are not sure about doing ctb, ctb is a big decision and these type of attempts will end up really bad and make you a vegetable so think a lot before doing ctb and make sure you are 100% sure

 

[jawdropped123]

You are fine for now because if something really bad happens to your neck you will be uncomfortable and breathing will be hard but monitor your neck for few more days and see how it goes

In future don't do half baked attempts if you are not sure about doing ctb, ctb is a big decision and these type of attempts will end up really bad and make you a vegetable so think a lot before doing ctb and make sure you are 100% sure

That night i was 100% sure i wanted to die. The next day i realised what ive done and regretted it. I was in a different mindset both times. I didnt even plan this beforehand either it was an sudden decision. Also no one want to feel discomfort after they try to cbt. Everyone wants a quick dead. I was also aware that i can become a vegetable but again i was in a bad mindset

Try to seek medical attention. It sounds very serious. Maybe there is some sort of damage to your neck. It could still end badly. I would seek medical attention but if you're worried about being put in a psychiatric hospital, just be subtle.

How do i ask for help without telling them what actually happen?