I told myself once it got dark I'd find somewhere more secluded and ctb but the thought of getting nauseous or throwing up is stopping me. I hate throwing up so much. I went and got some mints but I really don't think it's gonna do much for it honestly. I also considered waiting a little over an hour and calling an ambulance for some stupid reason just so I can get nausea meds. But I'm worried they'll find some way to save me and I don't want that or to get those stupid electric paddle things. They sound terrible 
and there's no damn bathrooms around either that would be another good reason to go in.
I wish I could've ctb in a more comfortable way, like in a bed not in my wheelchair on the sidewalk lmao
and there's no damn bathrooms around either that would be another good reason to go in. I wish I could've ctb in a more comfortable way, like in a bed not in my wheelchair on the sidewalk lmao
