I just want to kill myself

[k.mihaaa]

I've found the method. I've found a place. I've set a time.
I still can't do it. I'm scared I'll somehow be found, before or after I die. I'm scared that I will be 'saved' and paralysed for life. Or that someone will find my body after my death and touch it without my consent. I always hated that they took clothes off death people just to dress them up in fancier ones. It just sounds so gross and invading(even though the person is already dead).
I also can't leave my family and friends behind even though I feel detached and alienated from them. No one gives an actual fuck.
Even with all the shit I have pilling up day by day because I refuse to do it because I'm lazy. I'm still so confident that I'll be able to do all that.
I wish I had the balls to kill myself. I don't want to be alive anymore. If I was someone else I'd still kill myself.

 

[chudpolonais]

i get you, i also wish i had the balls to just end it. i could ctb this very night but i just can't

 

[k.mihaaa]

i get you, i also wish i had the balls to just end it. i could ctb this very night but i just can't

So glad this site is up

 

[isthisthingon]

I've found the method. I've found a place. I've set a time.
I still can't do it. I'm scared I'll somehow be found, before or after I die. I'm scared that I will be 'saved' and paralysed for life. Or that someone will find my body after my death and touch it without my consent. I always hated that they took clothes off death people just to dress them up in fancier ones. It just sounds so gross and invading(even though the person is already dead).
I also can't leave my family and friends behind even though I feel detached and alienated from them. No one gives an actual fuck.
Even with all the shit I have pilling up day by day because I refuse to do it because I'm lazy. I'm still so confident that I'll be able to do all that.
I wish I had the balls to kill myself. I don't want to be alive anymore. If I was someone else I'd still kill myself.

What method?