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Butterfly-death

Butterfly-death

Just let me die already all I do is suffer
Apr 5, 2024
37
This life is a prison. Idc if I were go to hell for ctb because it feels like I'm already in it. I would end it if I could but I don't have access to a good method right now. Things are getting worse, I feel horrible everyday. This life isn't even worth living. I don't have anything to live for. I'm just hoping I die or when I find a way to take matters into my own hands. God was never there I wanted to believe in him so badly but he's always let me down. It's stupid believing in someone you can't even see. I just want out of here. I want death to be nothing. I want to feel and be nothing. It will never get better for me I just know it. It's been bad for years and I'm so done. I just want the suffering to stop. It feels like I'll never die. I don't want to be alive that long. It's been long enough hurting like this. I hate it here.
 
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A Dream of a Dream

A Dream of a Dream

Warlock
May 6, 2024
781
Welcome, im sorry for this pain you are enduring. u r in good company. many of us wish for this suffering to end.
 
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danzk

danzk

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Apr 27, 2023
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Esta vida é uma prisão. Não me importo se eu fosse para o inferno por causa do CTB porque parece que já estou nele. Eu acabaria com isso se pudesse, mas não tenho acesso a um bom método agora. As coisas estão piorando, me sinto horrível a cada dia. Esta vida nem vale a pena ser vivida. Não tenho nada pelo que viver. Só espero morrer ou quando encontrar uma maneira de resolver as coisas com minhas próprias mãos. Deus nunca esteve lá, eu queria tanto acreditar nele, mas ele sempre me decepcionou. É estúpido acreditar em alguém que você nem consegue ver. Eu só quero sair daqui. Eu quero que a morte não seja nada. Eu quero sentir e ser nada. Nunca vai melhorar para mim, eu simplesmente sei disso. Tem sido ruim por anos e eu estou tão cansada. Eu só quero que o sofrimento pare. Parece que nunca vou morrer. Eu não quero estar viva por tanto tempo. Já faz tempo suficiente doendo assim. Eu odeio isso aqui.
I understand your pain, we live in this world without our will and we still have to deal with all this suffering, life is truly a prison.
 
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genoke

genoke

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Aug 13, 2024
77
Eckhart tolle said we do go somewhere else after we die based on our karma but Buddhists believe it's very rare to come back to earth and you won't remember it so... (?).

I'm sorry you feel like this. Are you on any medications?
 
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Steff1337

Steff1337

Autistic and schizophrenic, please be respectful
Jun 21, 2024
633
I'm very sorry that you're feeling that way. I just wish you to find relief in any way possible.
 
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attheend13

attheend13

There is no such thing as love.
Oct 1, 2023
206
I understand your pain, we live in this world without our will and we still have to deal with all this suffering, life is truly a prison.
That's sadly so true. Life is a sentence and I just don't understand the crime.
 
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wanttodie

wanttodie

Enlightened
Apr 19, 2018
1,823
me to just want to die already
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,155
I understand, I also feel really tired of suffering in this cruel existence, all I personally wish for is to never exist again and I get that it's really torturous and dreadful feeling stuck here in an existence that causes so much pain. But anyway I wish you all the best.
 
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CantDoIt

Elementalist
Jul 18, 2024
874
I feel the same, I wish something would just naturally take me out. Tired of having to imagine doing it myself.
 
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yoshizoom

Member
Aug 5, 2024
13
Same. I dont understand why I'm still alive. Everyday it's torture and I want to end it so badly. I feel that too. If god was real I don't understand why he gives me the toughest battles. Like what have I done to you to deserve this.
 
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