Venting I just want to be gone

[Praestat_Mori]

Although I don't feel really bad today and things are more or less as usual I just want to be gone - out of this life - which isn't a real life for me anymore. I'm rotting in my room every day, eating and sleeping. And the future expectations are terrible and terrify me bc I don't want to experience any further decline, I can't bear this anymore if there is a further decline. And there is no suitable solution to get out of this fucking shit hole. Life sucks.

 

[Borderline]

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing here really can be so dreadful, to me it's very much understandable just wishing to be free from all the suffering that existing brings, I get that's awful dreading what lies ahead, it certainly terrifies me how there is unlimited potential for existing to get much more unbearable. But anyway best wishes.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

Although I don't feel really bad today and things are more or less as usual I just want to be gone - out of this life - which isn't a real life for me anymore. I'm rotting in my room every day, eating and sleeping. And the future expectations are terrible and terrify me bc I don't want to experience any further decline, I can't bear this anymore if there is a further decline. And there is no suitable solution to get out of this fucking shit hole. Life sucks.

Im sorry ): i can relate. im watching myself slowly but surely deteriorating aswell and i cant do anything about it. im just watching as i rot

 

[MyChoiceAlone]

i've seen your name ever since i became a member. i won't encourage/discourage any of your thoughts. that is up to you alone. i can at the very least say that you will be missed.

 

[eashanm]

I know the feels. Only pain, misery and agony is left in my life

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

yep

 

[venin]

Although I don't feel really bad today and things are more or less as usual I just want to be gone - out of this life - which isn't a real life for me anymore. I'm rotting in my room every day, eating and sleeping. And the future expectations are terrible and terrify me bc I don't want to experience any further decline, I can't bear this anymore if there is a further decline. And there is no suitable solution to get out of this fucking shit hole. Life sucks.

As pinkribbonskars sayd, you might have some chances left but what if you don't want then? What if your life and your current state is so far away from what would be a life you enjoy that you wanna ctb?

Fuck life. I'm sick of it. Of half a measures and quarter of measures.

it

 

[just_so_done]

i've seen your name ever since i became a member. i won't encourage/discourage any of your thoughts. that is up to you alone. i can at the very least say that you will be missed.

this is literally what i was going to write. Praeastat_Mori, you've always been there to support the community, liking postings, validating ppl. i'm sorry you're struggling so much. I can really relate to what you're going through too. life feels impossible