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yashimon

yashimon

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Nov 27, 2025
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If only i have a gun maybe i would have enough courage to kms. hanging, overdosing i cant do those things im scared of failing and end up hospitalized. I open up a lot before i have gone through therapist and did everything yet i still feel like this maybe living here isn't just for me and i never really genuinely like anyone even my friends from before and my ex it's just so boring and full of suffering but in my lucid dreams i can do whatever i want and actually felt genuinely happiness maybe soon enough ill end up into a coma on how much i sleep everyday i only stay awake for 1 hour just to eat and head back to sleep to lucid dream
 
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capi

capi

Just a matter of time.
Nov 13, 2023
298
very relatable :(
its so jarring to be in literal heaven bliss, unaware of suffering and have anything you ever dreamed of, and then wake up to hell
i hope one day we find a way so people can be in that constant state.. so far i havent really found a diy method :((
 
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ineed2gosoon

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Nov 28, 2025
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I relate to this. Ive been having vivid dreams nightly for the past few weeks. Always disappointed when I wake up. I go to bed every night hoping I wont.
 
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RestlessTaiga

RestlessTaiga

I'm glad you're evil too
May 18, 2025
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I hate that I relate to this.
Everyday I have a lucid dream, and everytime I wake up I try to go back to dream, it's the most happy I have been lately, but at the same time it's agonizing, because it's only temporary, so everyday I have a wonderful lucid dream, just to wake up and forget everything about it, it's a blessing and a curse🫠
 

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