i only smile if it's genuine.
and i have resting bitch face i guess.
so i often make strangers in public kinda nervous and figgedty (spell)
some also try to combat their nervousness with giggling or whatever.
humans are the 99% cause and root to all my suffering in life.
so sorry if i don't feel like putting on a huge fake smile everytime i past walk one of them.
i'm by no means rude... ill smile back at a motherfucker if they do smile at me...
but most of the time i just wish they wouldn't.
because a lot of the time i will have looked away before even registering that they smiled at me.
and then it's like awkward, like "do i look back to return the smile now that i already looked away?"
it's very exhausting to live this way... having people actually judge you for NOT being fake.
i'm not intimidating whatsoever... ive just had a lot of bad experiences with humans.
and believe me, i've tried! i've tried the fake smiling.
for a long period of life i tried the fake smiling, and they see right thru the fakeness, i guess i'm not good enough an actor.
it comes across as so disingenuous to an almost comedic level where people will literally laugh at me,
so i'd rather just be real, with the side effect of sometimes making people nervous around me.
and i have resting bitch face i guess.
so i often make strangers in public kinda nervous and figgedty (spell)
some also try to combat their nervousness with giggling or whatever.
humans are the 99% cause and root to all my suffering in life.
so sorry if i don't feel like putting on a huge fake smile everytime i past walk one of them.
i'm by no means rude... ill smile back at a motherfucker if they do smile at me...
but most of the time i just wish they wouldn't.
because a lot of the time i will have looked away before even registering that they smiled at me.
and then it's like awkward, like "do i look back to return the smile now that i already looked away?"
it's very exhausting to live this way... having people actually judge you for NOT being fake.
i'm not intimidating whatsoever... ive just had a lot of bad experiences with humans.
and believe me, i've tried! i've tried the fake smiling.
for a long period of life i tried the fake smiling, and they see right thru the fakeness, i guess i'm not good enough an actor.
it comes across as so disingenuous to an almost comedic level where people will literally laugh at me,
so i'd rather just be real, with the side effect of sometimes making people nervous around me.
