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Rudi

Rudi

𝔐𝔬𝔯𝔦 𝔳𝔬𝔩𝔬 𝔰𝔢𝔡 𝔳𝔦𝔳𝔢𝔯𝔢 𝔳𝔬𝔩𝔬
Oct 15, 2024
146
i feel like all i do on this forum is cry out for help but whatever

i genuinely can't die. ive tried killing myself multiple times these past few weeks but i just can't. every time im about to do it something stops me and i dont like that. i wanted to OD 2 days ago and got caught. im so done with this life, why the hell can't i just leave? i wanna die, theres nothing that i want more than that and i fear i wont stop until i achieve that.
 
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kitkat9234

Experienced
Nov 27, 2024
219
I feel the same. I hate how it's so hard to CTB. Just cruel. Let me die already.
 
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wham311

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Mar 1, 2025
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Trapped in pain with no future with anything but pain.
 
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Rudi

Rudi

𝔐𝔬𝔯𝔦 𝔳𝔬𝔩𝔬 𝔰𝔢𝔡 𝔳𝔦𝔳𝔢𝔯𝔢 𝔳𝔬𝔩𝔬
Oct 15, 2024
146
I feel the same. I hate how it's so hard to CTB. Just cruel. Let me die already.
genuinely. i feel like the only thing im good at is failing to ctb.
 

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